El Gordito
strength thru faith
Greetings and Blessings to All,
I am in Virginia, with Roots in Guam, and Spain.
I am relatively new to beginning to understand Islam.
I was born and raised Roman Catholic, as the rest of my family. But for as long as I remember, something was missing in everything. I felt there was more to the bigger picture. I have never believed in some of the main principles of a practicing Catholic, and have been reprimanded many times for my views. I thought I was being a good Catholic by being an altar boy and serving during mass. But still. I felt like there was more than what was in front of me.
Recently, I've have met many Muslim people from many countries due to my old job who allowed me to read some books regarding the faith and the viewpoints of the mainstream . To this point, my only understanding and knowledge of Islam is what I have read about in history books and school books.
I have been having in depth discussions with a Muslim person who I work with, about faith and God. This person has also shared many verses from the Qu'ran with me.
If there is one thing that I have come to realize, I am not a Catholic. I'm not even sure if I'm a Christian (in the conventional use of the word). Sure I beleive Jesus existed, and did wonderful things, and taught and showed the world a righteous way... but my friend asked me one thing.
When I pray, who do I pray to?
This was a very difficult subject for me. In times of great praise, and need, I have always prayed to God. But when there are times of prayer .. just because we pray in church. I have always asked for Jesus.
Why? .... My only answer is that This is what I have always done. It is what my father has done, and what his father has done. It is what my neighbors did and what I was always told to do.
But other than that, I had no reason.
Anyway, (I don't want to bore you with a long drawn out story about my current situation on faith)....
in short - I love poetry, the beauty and wonders of nature, and I constantly write ... I write from the heart - but somehow my poems always end up being about 'searching' and 'being lost' and 'looking for God'. I know God is everywhere and his work can be seen everywhere.... but Something is missing from my life.
If anything... I came here to this site to ask.... is there a place in Islam for someone like me?
from what I have discussed with my friend, it seems like a beautiful and righteous way of life... and to be fervent with such devotion and dedication really inspires me... however it is also humbling... as I was never a devoted "Catholic"...
Please, if anyone out there can help me.
I am in Virginia, with Roots in Guam, and Spain.
I am relatively new to beginning to understand Islam.
I was born and raised Roman Catholic, as the rest of my family. But for as long as I remember, something was missing in everything. I felt there was more to the bigger picture. I have never believed in some of the main principles of a practicing Catholic, and have been reprimanded many times for my views. I thought I was being a good Catholic by being an altar boy and serving during mass. But still. I felt like there was more than what was in front of me.
Recently, I've have met many Muslim people from many countries due to my old job who allowed me to read some books regarding the faith and the viewpoints of the mainstream . To this point, my only understanding and knowledge of Islam is what I have read about in history books and school books.
I have been having in depth discussions with a Muslim person who I work with, about faith and God. This person has also shared many verses from the Qu'ran with me.
If there is one thing that I have come to realize, I am not a Catholic. I'm not even sure if I'm a Christian (in the conventional use of the word). Sure I beleive Jesus existed, and did wonderful things, and taught and showed the world a righteous way... but my friend asked me one thing.
When I pray, who do I pray to?
This was a very difficult subject for me. In times of great praise, and need, I have always prayed to God. But when there are times of prayer .. just because we pray in church. I have always asked for Jesus.
Why? .... My only answer is that This is what I have always done. It is what my father has done, and what his father has done. It is what my neighbors did and what I was always told to do.
But other than that, I had no reason.
Anyway, (I don't want to bore you with a long drawn out story about my current situation on faith)....
in short - I love poetry, the beauty and wonders of nature, and I constantly write ... I write from the heart - but somehow my poems always end up being about 'searching' and 'being lost' and 'looking for God'. I know God is everywhere and his work can be seen everywhere.... but Something is missing from my life.
If anything... I came here to this site to ask.... is there a place in Islam for someone like me?
from what I have discussed with my friend, it seems like a beautiful and righteous way of life... and to be fervent with such devotion and dedication really inspires me... however it is also humbling... as I was never a devoted "Catholic"...
Please, if anyone out there can help me.