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Welcome to this site Nika!
Remember, you're a part of the biggest family ever. And when you endure hardships, you can alway ask for help. Never be ashamed to do so! And always ask if things are not clear. In Islam ' just have faith' will not suffice.
For everything there is a logical explanation.
Among the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon us is the fact that He has made His religion easy for us, and has not made it too difficult or unbearable.It is just the enviorment you're in that could make it difficult.
I hope Allah will keep you on His path and reward you greatly in the afterlife.
:salam2: your brother.