DEAR SISTER JO.. if i read right you are loojking at converting to islam.
first thing you are/were not a christian so you are innocent of 'son of god 'blasphemy.
you dont have to leave anything.you just got to accept what you are to yourself .a muslim.
secondly one thing might ease the strain of it all - ask yourself how would you want your innocent son to grow up -with the kind of clutter that the people who stare at you grew up with or as a respectful person ,who loves Allah ,is obedient to His parents ..invites others to the way of islam and humbly says i AM ONE OF THE MUSLIMS..
MAYbe what i am saying will help you put your priorities in order.secondly i faced the same problem and a little bit of attitude,a little bit of pride and confidence help a lot.it is enough to cast terror into the empty hearts of the living dead.and more than just a little bit of pride is allowed when preparing for war.which is what you are doing .this going to be the greatest war and it would be won with prayers more than anything else.
OUR FRIEND IS ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY AND THE MUSHRIKIN AND KAFIRS HAVE NO REAL FRIENDS.just illusions and a feeling of superiority by belittling others.afterall all their grand scheme of things is based on 'theory of evolution' whichg is sob sob ..a theory.
for this atleast you can check..
www.harunyahya.com
go to presentations or articles or movies download and watch.
lastly for matters of islam keep coming here though the sight i say is good for scientific stuff and demolishing the mental structure of western philosophies of life.
ALLAH HAFIZ