i go up, i come down

[FreedomFighter]

:salam2:

few weeks back i was so sad and depressed...coz i hated school and life...and nothing seemed fine..just hated everything and dont care if i die..and then something happened and i couldnt figure it out, but i was feeling happy and lucky..that i got many things, like going to school, learning. i know why...this is weird..anyway yesterday i am just so depressed...just want to die and i hate everything..everything s***s. everyday its just the same thing..i dont know how to explain it, but its just the environment makes you depressed..

number 1, during last last weeks friday sermon, the imam was saying how jews and christians target Muslim teenagers through music, movies, lifestyle and magazine..they target them to neglet Islam..and he said that the prophet, pbuh, said that we should not follow the footsteps of non-muslims. and that made sense. after the sermon and prayer, im just with my friends, they just came i say 'that was a really good sermon.' and they say 'what was it about'. so i explain.. and they say 'what? thats not true..because its our choice if we want to listen to music, watch t.v..and the jews think that they are the chosen people so why should they care for Muslims to neglect our religion'...you see what i mean..

number 2, i cant seem to concentrate in prayer..during prayer i think about this and that..and what happened in TTI and what i post..things like that..does that happen to you??

number 3, i dont know what course im taking for university..

number 4, im not able to go back to my country and if i dont go back now, i might lose things i might not get back...because im growing up and i wont be able to do all the things i did...i mean i wont live two times on this earth..this one is complicated, it might not make sense to you...and why i cant go back, because there is war...a freakin bloody war

number 5, but now i feel a bit better, reading sister Asja's thread was nice.. it was homey and cozy..sry, my vocabulary is bad.

number 6, i feel so bad and sry for the Muslims in India..the torture they go through..i was reading that thread just now...very sick twisted hindus..muslims should do something...

number 7, i want to apologize if i havent been so nice...like if i only said thanks for something that deserves more than that...thats just how i am most of the times.

say something if you have, if you want to..anyone has something to say

im not weird or anything, but im in hurry and not typing and saying things properly..but i want to post this now??

 

[slaveofAllah88]

aslam o alikum sister,
You seem like a great individual dont let other guide you in your decision, in this world there is good and bad, Good makes us happy, bad makes us sad alot of times, But sister you should be happy you are not like many other people that read the news and dont feel a thing, alhumdulilah you try to feel their pain, you should be proud of urself for that. Try to keep happy by knowing the good things in life and remembering Allah (swt) through tough times cuz he might be testing you now for a greater reward later
Aslam o alikum

 

[FreedomFighter]

:salam2:

thanks for your feedbacks both your words are true..almost everything is like a test. i like basketball and i tried to get into the team, but because of my age, i couldnt. i dont know if that team exists now anyway, because one week they are talking about it, and now its gone, no one talks about it..

 

[B-R-R]

Salam alaikum wa ra!

Brother, this is the struggle all of us are going through.
I like to address two points:
You seem too deal with procrastination problems. Write down, because you need to get out of your head. I'm personally cutting down on my posting and reading on TTI and Messenger time. My studies are more important and the prayers, everything else is simply not.

Lastly, most/some of us get distracted in prayer and that's the shaytan. So what you do is: say "Authu bilahi mina shaytani razeem" and blow ( in between spitting and blowing) three times to your left shoulder. Bilal Philips advice this and I also read an article about distractions in prayer. I almost frequently get distracted, and this is what I do.

Salam alaikum wa rahmatullah!

 

[Kakorot]

:salam2:

few weeks back i was so sad and depressed...coz i hated school and life...and nothing seemed fine..just hated everything and dont care if i die..and then something happened and i couldnt figure it out, but i was feeling happy and lucky..that i got many things, like going to school, learning. i know why...this is weird..anyway yesterday i am just so depressed...just want to die and i hate everything..everything s***s. everyday its just the same thing..i dont know how to explain it, but its just the environment makes you depressed..

i hate school as well but i have to study to have good education. i was even to my dad about this ystrdy and he said that at the end it will be good for me. yh i have those feelings as well, like one minute i'm happy, i'm ok, the next minute i feel so low, i think everyone gets that (especially teenagers). i live in UK so i walk out my house and i see ppl doing what they want, like as a Muslim i remember time and time again that i am accountable on yaumul qiyaamah for each and every action that i do, so i am aware of this. and i try to be a good muslimah (alhtough i know i can do better) but u see the non-muslims dnt know that they are accountable for their deeds. so i see them doing what they want and i feel like i dunno how to describe but i feel like i am completey different to them. like i am here on this earth with a purpose in life (check surah 51, ayah 56) but they dnt know their purpose. do u know what i'm trying to say, i hope it makes sense. also, i feel like i see life in a different way to them as well. yh and i do feel depressed myself sometimes (fam probs - everyone has them i'm sure, i dnt socialise much, like just today i saw my friends at college and i had lunch with them, i had a laugh as well and it was nice



number 2, i cant seem to concentrate in prayer..during prayer i think about this and that..and what happened in TTI and what i post..things like that..does that happen to you??

everyone goes through this, may Allaah help us gain khushu in our salah ameen

number 3, i dont know what course im taking for university..

neither do i

number 4, im not able to go back to my country and if i dont go back now, i might lose things i might not get back...because im growing up and i wont be able to do all the things i did...i mean i wont live two times on this earth..this one is complicated, it might not make sense to you...and why i cant go back, because there is war...a freakin bloody war

may Allaah make it easy for u ameen may Allaah help those in need


number 6, i feel so bad and sry for the Muslims in India..the torture they go through..i was reading that thread just now...very sick twisted hindus..muslims should do something...

may Allaah help them InshaAllaah, lets make du'aa for them and give sadaqah and inform those who are unaware of this situation


im not weird or anything, but im in hurry and not typing and saying things properly..but i want to post this now??

no ur not weird, dnt worry

 

[Kakorot]

my post came out wrong =/

 

[a_muslimah86]

As you have counted seven of your problems, see if you can count seven blessings! I bet you can think of seventy blessings, can't you?

What we think about often forms our beliefs. Our beliefs form our attitude. Our attitude forms our conduct. Our conduct forms our relationships. Our relationships form our lives. If you want your life to be happy and smooth, start by thinking positively, doing positive actions and surround yourself with positive people.

Whenever you get a negative thought, ask yourself first if it's true. Recognize that it's coming from Satan. Then balance it out with a positive thought. That will take care of it just like a good deed erases a bad one.

Wouldn't have put it any better..baraka allaho feek akhi

Sister...do not feel entitled to take everything to heart..sometimes you do have to remain detached from certain things

 

[stiks]

Asalaamualaykum,

Our iman goes up or down depending on our good deeds.