poetic
mrs aisha b
Salaam Alaikum
Before Islam I had a very hard life, I have alot of knowledge because of that life experience, I didn't go through all of my highschool , but im working on getting this GED if you havn't heard of it , it is equivalent to a highschool diploma, you have to do some tests and pay for it. The reason I didn't make it through high school was not because of stupidity or the unability to learn or anything like that, I had a baby, and just recently had my second baby. I am married and everything. My mother in law treats me so badly, she literly called me dumb one day she said "you think your so smart but you havnt even finished your education". She's told me numerous times that I can't learn about Islam, and sometimes she will say oh you should be doing this and that more than wearing a hijab, meanwhile I am on the internet everyday learning everything possible, for a while I was seeing an older sister (before my second daughter was born) and also learned alot from her, I know more than she thinks, I dont feel as if I have to brag about knowing, thats for Allah to know, she just asumes im not doing anything Islamically. I've memorized surah fatihah and im working on 2 more at the moment, I hope to learn them asap and memorize Insha'allah. I cry so much because of her under estimating me and the way she treats me, so many times I was acused of dis-respecting and shes always right and im always wrong, I know I should respect my elders especially my mother in law! But I'd like that respect back , just because shes older does not meen she knows more than me in general, and if she does and I dont of course she should teach me. Shes always trying to make my husband food and she always asks if he is hungry this upsets me, its like shes saying I dont make food for him! Whenever my newest baby pukes she says I didnt burp her, shes always telling me to bath her, and not to do things like when she was first born no tummy time, but my kids pediatrician said too, and now just recently I found out she had her neck muscle pulled at birth so she should have been doing tummy time, but I didnt do it because I didnt want her freaking out on me, now I regret it because my baby is in physio therapy! .. I have two kids I am busy with I try to clean up so much whenever they nap or I have the chance, everyday I am cleaning, I know thats half our deen, and she always says oh you should clean all the time everyday you know, and im like yeah i do (she doesnt even come down here to see if I am!!) again she asumes,and she pretty much rolls her eyes! she has no kids now they are all grown up, plus my oldest is more hyper than most so shes always bringing toys out of her room and getting into everything, also i have to dust twice a day because i am in a basment and there is no air circulation, so the dust comes right back I tryed to explain that to her but she gave me that same look like im dumb! .. I am so busy im tired I barely sleep at night, my husband is more on her side, and when ever i try to defend my self im wrong for doing so, she even called me a slut once!! I know she will never like me like her other daughter in law, because she is pakistani and I am white, right now we are on good terms were talking I am trying to respect her but im sick of her opinions and I know she loves her son but he has a wife now!.. My husband is wasteing so much money I always tell him let me make you food but he gos to work and eats with his friends take-out, unless hes off work then I cook for him, I always offer him food to bring to work and for when he gets home and hes like oh im not hungry I tell him hes weasteing so much money, he doesnt listen. Today I asked him as usual if hes hungry and wants me to make him something he said no not really, and i heard him leaving for work his mom asked if he was hungry this is at 1 in the afternoon, and he said im not hungry I think he should have said no im not hungry and thanks anyways but if I was i'd get my wife to cook me a meal.. I am going through so much can anyone else relate to me? I've contemplated leaving, I love him so much and want a life with him without his mom always on my case ! we are not the same as before anymore, I miss his love and affection, my heart cant handle it anymore.
Before Islam I had a very hard life, I have alot of knowledge because of that life experience, I didn't go through all of my highschool , but im working on getting this GED if you havn't heard of it , it is equivalent to a highschool diploma, you have to do some tests and pay for it. The reason I didn't make it through high school was not because of stupidity or the unability to learn or anything like that, I had a baby, and just recently had my second baby. I am married and everything. My mother in law treats me so badly, she literly called me dumb one day she said "you think your so smart but you havnt even finished your education". She's told me numerous times that I can't learn about Islam, and sometimes she will say oh you should be doing this and that more than wearing a hijab, meanwhile I am on the internet everyday learning everything possible, for a while I was seeing an older sister (before my second daughter was born) and also learned alot from her, I know more than she thinks, I dont feel as if I have to brag about knowing, thats for Allah to know, she just asumes im not doing anything Islamically. I've memorized surah fatihah and im working on 2 more at the moment, I hope to learn them asap and memorize Insha'allah. I cry so much because of her under estimating me and the way she treats me, so many times I was acused of dis-respecting and shes always right and im always wrong, I know I should respect my elders especially my mother in law! But I'd like that respect back , just because shes older does not meen she knows more than me in general, and if she does and I dont of course she should teach me. Shes always trying to make my husband food and she always asks if he is hungry this upsets me, its like shes saying I dont make food for him! Whenever my newest baby pukes she says I didnt burp her, shes always telling me to bath her, and not to do things like when she was first born no tummy time, but my kids pediatrician said too, and now just recently I found out she had her neck muscle pulled at birth so she should have been doing tummy time, but I didnt do it because I didnt want her freaking out on me, now I regret it because my baby is in physio therapy! .. I have two kids I am busy with I try to clean up so much whenever they nap or I have the chance, everyday I am cleaning, I know thats half our deen, and she always says oh you should clean all the time everyday you know, and im like yeah i do (she doesnt even come down here to see if I am!!) again she asumes,and she pretty much rolls her eyes! she has no kids now they are all grown up, plus my oldest is more hyper than most so shes always bringing toys out of her room and getting into everything, also i have to dust twice a day because i am in a basment and there is no air circulation, so the dust comes right back I tryed to explain that to her but she gave me that same look like im dumb! .. I am so busy im tired I barely sleep at night, my husband is more on her side, and when ever i try to defend my self im wrong for doing so, she even called me a slut once!! I know she will never like me like her other daughter in law, because she is pakistani and I am white, right now we are on good terms were talking I am trying to respect her but im sick of her opinions and I know she loves her son but he has a wife now!.. My husband is wasteing so much money I always tell him let me make you food but he gos to work and eats with his friends take-out, unless hes off work then I cook for him, I always offer him food to bring to work and for when he gets home and hes like oh im not hungry I tell him hes weasteing so much money, he doesnt listen. Today I asked him as usual if hes hungry and wants me to make him something he said no not really, and i heard him leaving for work his mom asked if he was hungry this is at 1 in the afternoon, and he said im not hungry I think he should have said no im not hungry and thanks anyways but if I was i'd get my wife to cook me a meal.. I am going through so much can anyone else relate to me? I've contemplated leaving, I love him so much and want a life with him without his mom always on my case ! we are not the same as before anymore, I miss his love and affection, my heart cant handle it anymore.