lightofnur
Junior Member
Assalammualaikum everyone.
I'm typing this because I'm actually torn between the choices I've made and sad because it has cost me something big. At the same time, there's acceptance in me, because I did this for Allah only.
Well, to make it short, I was offered a place for a professional degree course with absolute confirmation, even though I'm not technically eligible for it as of yet. There were only very few spots available and I was asked to choose in 30 minutes. I understood, though, that the agent and my family member had gotten it for me through illegal means (in the sense that logically speaking, I would have to complete an actual full course and earn very high marks before being able to enter). It was the chance of a life time for me, but in my heart there was only Allah. I wondered how uncomfortable I would feel knowing that I had used deception, and how I would disappoint Allah. So I rejected the offer despite vehement protests from certain family members.
Ultimately, I lost the chance to do my long-dreamt-of professional course because I felt it was wrong. Of course, I was scolded badly and rebuked a few times today, and I'm starting to feel this is just the beginning seeing that I might not be able to enter 2 other prestigious places I applied for (since the competition is VERY VERY high, believe me), and that's my professional degree thrown out of the window. In other words, I have to start over with another course. The only "confirmed" road as my family member said, was by accepting the offer, which I rejected.
I try to sooth myself thinking of many sayings of the Prophet and the words of the Al-Qur'an, and it helps me. But I can't help crying a little when people rebuke me and remind me of my "mistake" all over again. This might probably go on for a few months, knowing one of my family members (not predicting the future!).
So my simple request . . . can you brothers/sisters please keep me in your du'as so that I may be successful in achieving my dream degree and so that I may be strong?
This whole affair has taught me the power of du'as and the effort we take for our brothers and sisters. My last question, how do I make du'as for those who request them on this forum? Do we address them one by one, or do we just say to Allah, "Oh Allah, please relieve the pain of my brothers and sisters in Islam, to those who have requested it ... " etc. (in our own words)?
May Allah Bless and Love you always. I will definitely remember you all in my du'as, Insha'Allah. Thanks very, very much. I'll be needing all the strength I can get. :')
I'm typing this because I'm actually torn between the choices I've made and sad because it has cost me something big. At the same time, there's acceptance in me, because I did this for Allah only.
Well, to make it short, I was offered a place for a professional degree course with absolute confirmation, even though I'm not technically eligible for it as of yet. There were only very few spots available and I was asked to choose in 30 minutes. I understood, though, that the agent and my family member had gotten it for me through illegal means (in the sense that logically speaking, I would have to complete an actual full course and earn very high marks before being able to enter). It was the chance of a life time for me, but in my heart there was only Allah. I wondered how uncomfortable I would feel knowing that I had used deception, and how I would disappoint Allah. So I rejected the offer despite vehement protests from certain family members.
Ultimately, I lost the chance to do my long-dreamt-of professional course because I felt it was wrong. Of course, I was scolded badly and rebuked a few times today, and I'm starting to feel this is just the beginning seeing that I might not be able to enter 2 other prestigious places I applied for (since the competition is VERY VERY high, believe me), and that's my professional degree thrown out of the window. In other words, I have to start over with another course. The only "confirmed" road as my family member said, was by accepting the offer, which I rejected.
I try to sooth myself thinking of many sayings of the Prophet and the words of the Al-Qur'an, and it helps me. But I can't help crying a little when people rebuke me and remind me of my "mistake" all over again. This might probably go on for a few months, knowing one of my family members (not predicting the future!).
So my simple request . . . can you brothers/sisters please keep me in your du'as so that I may be successful in achieving my dream degree and so that I may be strong?
This whole affair has taught me the power of du'as and the effort we take for our brothers and sisters. My last question, how do I make du'as for those who request them on this forum? Do we address them one by one, or do we just say to Allah, "Oh Allah, please relieve the pain of my brothers and sisters in Islam, to those who have requested it ... " etc. (in our own words)?
May Allah Bless and Love you always. I will definitely remember you all in my du'as, Insha'Allah. Thanks very, very much. I'll be needing all the strength I can get. :')
I read this and I felt better inside. Although I'm not as brave as you have mentioned, the only thought was of Allah, so I feel like I've done at least something. And I was really pleased to see that at least this ordeal inspired someone. Good for you, Alhamdulillah!