AZAM_SIDDIQUI
Junior Member
In The Name Of GOD The Most Gracious The Most Merciful
"Even Angels Ask"
One of the reasons that hindered me from choosing Islam
- in spite of my convenience of what it is calling for-
is that I considered myself
not being worth being a Muslim.
Along the years I did a big number of sins and guilt
, which made me feel it’s impossible for me to live my life under the umbrella of Islam requirements.
After I finally spoke out Islam testimony,
I committed myself to it.
Although I realize my corruption,
I realized it’s better for me to live and die recognizing the truth
, even if I fail to fulfill it’s necessities,
then to live and die in silence and ignorance of this truth.
After adopting Islam,
I knew I might be the most miserable among all Muslims,
I promised myself to do all the best that I can to live with the Believe (the faith).
This may sound strange,
but I lived the strongest spiritual moments in my life during those few weeks after I converted to Islam.
It was like as much as I saw myself much weaker and in a lower grade,
my prayers turned to be more gorgeous and exiting,
and the more I needed God’s mercy and forgiveness,
the more I felt them in my heart.
In spite of all weakness factors that I still have to overtake,
I used to feel loving mercy and sympathy,
the more I went to The One (God) direction,
who knows me very well.
I never knew real love until I became a Muslim,
I always used to feel it’s a big risk to trust any human being even myself.
As an atheist I used to think that love was nothing but a pleasant expression of the unsecured human feeling and his selfishness.
I gave up love since a long time and I never wanted to know it either as giver or taker.
All that I was striving for was to live a comfortable life as much as I can until I die,
to turn into forgotten dust under an unknown grave…
BUT….after I read the Qura’an and accomplish Islam prayers, a door opened to my heart and I’ve been covered by overwhelming sympathy.
Love turned to be more lasting and real than the ground I’m standing on.
From Jiffrey Lang Book- in spite of my convenience of what it is calling for-
is that I considered myself
not being worth being a Muslim.
Along the years I did a big number of sins and guilt
, which made me feel it’s impossible for me to live my life under the umbrella of Islam requirements.
After I finally spoke out Islam testimony,
I committed myself to it.
Although I realize my corruption,
I realized it’s better for me to live and die recognizing the truth
, even if I fail to fulfill it’s necessities,
then to live and die in silence and ignorance of this truth.
After adopting Islam,
I knew I might be the most miserable among all Muslims,
I promised myself to do all the best that I can to live with the Believe (the faith).
This may sound strange,
but I lived the strongest spiritual moments in my life during those few weeks after I converted to Islam.
It was like as much as I saw myself much weaker and in a lower grade,
my prayers turned to be more gorgeous and exiting,
and the more I needed God’s mercy and forgiveness,
the more I felt them in my heart.
In spite of all weakness factors that I still have to overtake,
I used to feel loving mercy and sympathy,
the more I went to The One (God) direction,
who knows me very well.
I never knew real love until I became a Muslim,
I always used to feel it’s a big risk to trust any human being even myself.
As an atheist I used to think that love was nothing but a pleasant expression of the unsecured human feeling and his selfishness.
I gave up love since a long time and I never wanted to know it either as giver or taker.
All that I was striving for was to live a comfortable life as much as I can until I die,
to turn into forgotten dust under an unknown grave…
BUT….after I read the Qura’an and accomplish Islam prayers, a door opened to my heart and I’ve been covered by overwhelming sympathy.
Love turned to be more lasting and real than the ground I’m standing on.
"Even Angels Ask"
