littlegirl
New Member
Ahsalaam alaikum
help me brothers and sisters. :'(
I am tryng to be good. i think of death, allah every min of life.. I cry everyday and night in fear of allah. I keep asking for forgiveness.. I did bad sin's in life and now i want to be normal.
i keep getting bad thoughts. it aint only bad its just terrible terible, worst thoughts ever. :'(
I cant sleep, nor study. I pray 5 times a day and recite quran, read dhua's..
HELP ME .. :'( I will go crazy if this doesnt stop. i cant stop crying. Few mins ago i cried so hard that if my parents were not around i would cry out loud. i cry at bathroom, ask allah for forgiveness.
then why is this hapening to me? I am going to wear hijab on this ramadaan since i dont have any proper dresses. Why is this hapening? :'( i have stopped playing music months ago and even if my brothers play i try my self not to listen and listen to quran instead. I want to die as a true muslim but these thoughts... :'( I want to go to heaven. i want to be with my other brothers and sisters in jannathul firdaus. i feel that i am going to die and burn in hell fire. :'(
after fajr prayer i look up the sky and sometimes cry. I am having such a hard time when i want to be good. :'(

help me brothers and sisters. :'(
I am tryng to be good. i think of death, allah every min of life.. I cry everyday and night in fear of allah. I keep asking for forgiveness.. I did bad sin's in life and now i want to be normal.
i keep getting bad thoughts. it aint only bad its just terrible terible, worst thoughts ever. :'(
I cant sleep, nor study. I pray 5 times a day and recite quran, read dhua's..
HELP ME .. :'( I will go crazy if this doesnt stop. i cant stop crying. Few mins ago i cried so hard that if my parents were not around i would cry out loud. i cry at bathroom, ask allah for forgiveness.
then why is this hapening to me? I am going to wear hijab on this ramadaan since i dont have any proper dresses. Why is this hapening? :'( i have stopped playing music months ago and even if my brothers play i try my self not to listen and listen to quran instead. I want to die as a true muslim but these thoughts... :'( I want to go to heaven. i want to be with my other brothers and sisters in jannathul firdaus. i feel that i am going to die and burn in hell fire. :'(
after fajr prayer i look up the sky and sometimes cry. I am having such a hard time when i want to be good. :'(
