Assalamualakum Brother's and Sister's Here, i really wanted to express my life in the following paragraph and wanted your replies and see your response because i really cant talk about it with any other person no one would understand and think im weird. So this is why i come here because i can express myself without anyone really knowing.... During my childhood year's until the end of 6th grade, i had one of the most happiest life a person could have. My friend's were always there for me and most of them were Muslim (we had our little group of 6 people). We used to go to each other's houses and have lots of fun. My childhood years were also i could say the best years of my life so far, i had even finished the Quran for the first time during that time. I had become very close to a friend of mine i had known since 2nd grade. I had become very attached to his family and his family and his relatives treated me like i was also part of their family. I used to go to there house everyday and his mom would teach me how to read the Quran. My best friend and i used to go everywhere together, sometime he would go places with my family and i would go places with his family. Everything was going fine until 6th grade At the end of 6th grade, i had got the news of him moving, it didnt seem much at first. Then i got the news of 4 out of 6 of my other closest friends were moving. I didnt notice how much they meant to me, they would always stick up for me and just being around them made me happy. During my 7th grade year i had become depressed and was always crying every night in my room while about to go to sleep. That year was the worst, i had gotten the worst grades i gotten in my whole life, i lost almost all my friends because they moved, and my dad became increasingly angry with me for making bad grades and actually at time beat me or slapped me for it. Everytime i think of it tears come out of my eyes because i couldnt not explain what i was going through.(yes guy's cry to they just never infront of anyone) Eigth grade started out good i had gotten very good grades, but my father was still mad about 7th grade and actually slapped me one-time infront of the whole family. I just felt like no one liked me anymore. I was an Ordinary person when i talked, and looked like an ordinary person. At the end of 9th grade i looked toward my religion. During the month of ramadan i fasted all the days, went to all the taraweeh prayers and went to 4/5 odd days for la-ital qadr. I prayed everyday for my life to change and it actually has because i met new people in my class. 10th grade is starting out good but i am still saddened about what i lost, i dont have my old friends phone number or anything and most of them moved far away. The friend's i have now, there still not the same. I dont think i have an ordinary life, its usually sad which is why most of the time i look toward Islam. I just want to see if anyone else had any of the same experience because i dont want to feel like "oh why out of all the people is it me!?". I always hate that question. Jazakallah Khairan May allah give us a Joyful life here, and more importantly, the hereafter.