Pure

Yateer

Sab'a Sita Ethnain
Pure

I remember her tranquil, bluish eyes,
Shimmering like the stars, that hang above.
It's been too long, since I've gazed upon them,
How sweet she was to befriend and love.

I rest myself against my pack,
The chill of the night begins to numb my core.
The crackling of the fire the only sound,
As I warm myself with the jacket I wore.

The stars befriending my lonely soul,
While I remember a friend that my heart had lost.
Enticed by memories — I begin to smile,
About how I loved her at any cost.

Her memories warm my broken heart,
Like a flame that was intended only for me.
My breathing slows as I am put to ease,
By these broken memories that set me free.

I try to forget so I reach for my journal,
Maybe an entry will let her pass.
I open it's pages and ready my pen,
Etching my words as if writing on glass.

Stroke after stroke — word after word,
My mind is occupied by her bluish eyes.
Open like the sky but as rich as an ocean,
A soul cannot resist, no matter how hard it tries.

I try to write on but to no avail,
Unable to etch my speech that heals.
My tired mind would wish to forget,
But my broken heart - her memory it steals.*!

I cease the scribbling of my idling pen,
As I look to the stars and begin to ponder.
Does she still love me the way she did?
It is a lingering thought that I continue to wonder.

Lost in the glitter of the shimmering stars,
I realize the ink on my page has bled.
So I fold my page and turn to another,
While resting on the gravel that has become my bed.

I remove my sidearm and unload its clip,
The day of battle has come to a rest.
The night leaves time for me to write,
To the woman who walked my wounded chest.

I begin to tremble, as I reach for my pen,
Afraid of crying after all these years.
I imagine her sitting beside me tonight,
Maybe she can wipe my streaming tears.

I begin my letter with something I wish,
To be with her until the end of her days.
"Peace be with you" I etch on my page,
As the tears in my eyes begin to form a haze.

I write to her with words of compassion,
Fooling my heart by making her think she's there.
Am I losing my mind or is this what happens,
To a man who truly, did once love and care?

"Do you remember that night when I desperately asked,
To say those words that I desired to hear?
I asked you to try me, and you finally did,
Telling me that you loved me, without a fear.

I remember you said that I melted your heart,
But the candles within me exist no more.
For you melted mine with your gentle smile,
On days, when rain had continued to pour.

I'm sorry, you know? For how I made you feel,
When I made you jealous, while, for your love I fought.
But I couldn't resist to reassure your heart,
That you were the one that my heart had sought.

Never did you cease to make me smile,
Even when I was lost, you'd always find me.
And for that, I thank you, from the depths within,
That continue to ponder about what sets me free.

Words don't do justice as to how I feel,
But bear with me, I'm doing my best.
Actions always speak louder than broken words,
I'd give you a kiss, but you are not here on my quest.

At this very moment, the stars are playing,
I only wish that you were here to see.
They remind me of the glow that I see in your eyes,
Somber, mysterious — setting me free.

Does a son now lurk beside your heart?
Is his smile as rich as the one on you?
I can only imagine his beautiful eyes,
Like his gentle mother's - heavy and blue.

Do you remember our wish for those afternoons,
A tranquil time spent in the light of the sun.
Underneath our sheets we'd be speaking for hours,
The world shut away as the light had shun."

I pause my pen, and begin to weep,
I look to my side to see if she's there.
But I'm fooling myself, my heart has tricked me,
All that remains is my rifle and spare.

I cannot finish this letter to her,
For words will fade once I'm among the others,
Soaring above the enchanting warbling,
Finally at peace with my long lost brothers.

I grasp the page with my shaking hands,
And I wipe the tears away from my eyes.
I read the words that I've written for her,
My tears have ceased but my heart still cries.

Exhaling my breath — the chill still present,
But her memories still warm my broken heart.
Silence envelops me like the darkness around,
As I look to the stars that are scattered apart.

I look at my letter, what a fool I am,
For what hope do I have that she'll ever know?
The way I truly felt about her,
The way, to my life, she brought a glow.

I begin to tear the crinkled page,
My tears still warm against the surface.
Piece by piece, I take it apart,
For this letter to me, no longer has a purpose.

I hold the remains in my trembling hands,
Gazing upon my broken words.
I look to the stars as they continue to glitter,
The only thing missing are the soaring birds.*!

I hold my hands up to my breath,
Exhaling slowly in the crippling cold.
I bring the pieces close to my mouth,
As the night matures — the darkness — bold.*!

With a desperate exhale I blow them away,
The pieces bursting into the air.
A tranquility befalls me as they begin to fall,
Amazed at the site - I cannot help but stare.

The light of the fire shines against them,
Floating in the air - they look like the stars.
Seamlessly swaying above the light,
Obscuring years of painful scars.

Finally, I've put her where I'll always remember,
Among the stars that befriend my soul.
Forever she will always remain with me,
While journeying to avoid the unforgiving coal.

I pack my journal away again,
As I lie on my back and stare above.
The pieces still falling but I am at ease,
Awaiting a day to gaze upon my love.

Finally, I reload my empty sidearm,
And begin to recite the words of my Lord.
"He is with you wherever you are,"
It's funny, today, the rain never poured.

My eyes cannot resist the urge to close,
Her tranquil eyes are my sickness and cure.
Sleep befalls me as I continue to ponder,
About the one I lost, who was gentle and pure...
 

Asja

Pearl of Islaam
:salam2:

MashAllah dear brother.

Jazzak Allah khair for sharing your beautiful poem with us MashAllah. :)

May Allah bless you.Ameen Ya Rabby!

:wasalam:
 
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