I am here because I have the same problem as I have for the last ten years. I am a convert/revert or just a muslim i suppose who never assimilated into the muslim community. I have the same issues with this as many others. It seems like muslims do not adhere to sunna. If I say salaam or invite someone to spend time with me and build a friendship they don't respond. They don't send me salaams, or even really care to talk beyond superficialities. I have been backbiten and judged by muslim women, usually in languages that I don't understand, but I am not blind. Trash talking looks the same on everyone hijab or not, english or urudu or swahili. The body language and the facial expression is there. I have cried and felt bad about it. I've been angry and now I'm pretty much not in the mood to put any more energy into it at all. Prayer is great. Ramadan is coming. Eid. I am alone for all of it. The only thing I really worry about it being buried properly when I die. I don't even despair about marriage any more. I'm a happy person and I know how to stay busy so alhumdullillah I'm probably better off than many convert/reverts who get married thinking that it will solve thier problems. I just thought it would be nice to hear from muslims everyonce in a while. Even if they aren't addressing me directly I willl get e-mail notifications and I might post every once in a while.