Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatulahi wa barakatuhu dear sister in islam
We should realize how Allah ta'ala is Mercifull and Forgiving with us and HE loves us more then 70 times a mother loves her child regardless of our sins.
Why the humans have the capability to go higher than angels? Because humans make mistakes and make sincere repentance to Allah.Through their sincere repentance Allah forgive all of their past sins and convert their past sins into good deeds and the love of Allah increase towards them.On the other hand angels are being created to fully submit themselves to the commands of Allah without having the element of making mistakes and because of this the status of angels stays the same in the eyes of Allah.It does not mean that we commit sins purposely thinking that they will be forgiven because Allah knows what we have in our hearts at the time of our repentance.The meaning of true repentance is that all those actions that we have commited against the laws of Allah and the ways of the Prophet (saw.) 1: We dont do these actions again 2: We should ask Allah to create the hatred towards the sins 3: We should ask, O Allah keep us away of the evil of my own self and the devil 4: We need to ask refuge from Allah from our nafs, from seitan, from wrong envirment wich plays the keyrole in a persons lifestyle.
We have to realize the power and the atributes of Allah.That Allah has created the entire universe, all that we see and we do not see is all being created by Allah.This is the evil thought that he puts in our minds "O you so and so have commited so many sins that your repentance will never be accepted and might as well leave La Illaha ilAllah Muhammadur Rasoolullah.The ultimate effort of seitan is to lead humans into hellfire and the ultimate effort of the Prophet (saw.) was to save eich and every human from the fire of hell.
Now we have to realize who Allah is.He is Mercifull.Allah is Allknowing.Allah sees everything.Allah has created everything.Allah's kingdom is the biggest and most powerfull kingdom.Allah has our kidneys in His control.Allah has our eyes in His control.Allah has our brain in control.Allah has our full bodies in His control.Allah has our ears in His control.Allah has our tongues in His control.Allah has all the strenghts of human in His control.There is no where on the earth or in the entire universe where Allah has no control over.It is shallow thought from seitan to leave Islam.Leaving Islam is leaving Allah.Is there anyone more powerfull then Allah? No way there isnt any! As we all know as a believer.
Please my sister i really do not want you to become hopeless.It is a wonderfull thing about you that you have thought about consulting your feelings on this forum.May Allah be pleased with you.Even up untill now we all were astray(lost).We should all ask taubah(repentance) to Allah by bowing down infront of Him and also prostrating infront of Him and sharing few tears infront of Him.Such a great light will come into our hearts the moment we submit ourselves totally to our Beloved Allah.Just imagine up until now we were lost but He never took the food away from us.He never took our eyes,tonques,ears away from us wich has been used for the wrong.He is so loving He is still waiting for us to repent.Through this sincere repentance Allah will open so many ways for you.Allah will give you peace,tranquility,respect,honour,dignity,the peace of mind and confidence.Then insha'Allah a day will come when you will start to realize the purpose of ur life and the effort of deen (dawa) the same effort Prophet (saw.) and his sahaba (companions)sacrifize their lives for.Now they are all resting in peace in Makkah and Madina and throughout the whole world, that Allah has honoured those people so much that even up until today people remember them in good words and take guidence from their past sacrifises.
May Allah guide us all,Ameen.
Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatulahi wa barakatuhu
