Assalaam alaikum, It is one thing to read the Glorious Quran and learn about trials and tribulations. It is quite another when the rug gets pulled under your feet. When you enter the world of what did I do to be here, in this position. Those dark days when there is no friend around. When you scream out for help and you hear you echo. The world becomes so small you can not even see your shadow. You cry so much that even tears abandon you. Yet, you stick to dua. In the lonely abyss of life you cry out to Allah subhana wa taala. You need arms to embrace you and you get thorns. But, you continue your dua. You are abandoned by everyone. You walk alone. You are dejected and rejected. You are pushed to the point of examining your faith. You think about doing something foolish. The acts of the kufr. They are always having a good time. Yet, you hold on to your faith. Slowly, you become stronger. You hold onto the words of Allah subhana wa taala when He says Which of the wonders do you deny. Like a child you ponder over your blessings. I hate that. I have so many blessings I can't even commiserate on my misery. He has given all to me. Trials make us stronger. The universe opens up. We are rid of the per-conceived notions we hold for ourselves. In spiritual terms we let go of wishful thinking. And that is the thing about trials. We let go of that which we think is the best for us. We learn to rely on the Wisdom of the Maker. Not an easy thing to do. Our egos filled with arrogance tell us that what we know is best for us. It seems that the best remedy for arrogance is trial. Trials do wear you out. You feel like you need to sleep for a century. Yet, when you emerge from the testing you have energy. I read somewhere that the most important relationship we have is with Allah subhana wa taala. He Loves us. And no matter where we are in this phase of life, living here in this existence, as long as we recognize that He Loves us, me, simple little old me, it's gonna be ok. And as long as I call out to Him, He will take care of me. In hindsight one of the biggest blessings He gives us are His tests. Alhumdullila, Alhumdullila,Alhumdullila.