You are not muslim yet but you believe in Allah, there's alot you need to know more than just belief becuase if you know who Allah subhnahwatala is you would not ask a question like "why is Allah playing with my life?" "I have to wait for doom's day "
As muslims we believe Allah is All...
Sister did you try contacting the imam of your closest masjid? He might be able to help you, also your muslims friends should be able to find someone for you.
It must be hard living like that for 7 years! you are strong masha'Allah but there is a limit you need to get away soon and pracitise...
This is not "revealing sins", excuse me!! He was not even muslim at that time and Allah is not even going TO lOOK at those "sins" because it all happened before Islam.The sahabah had sins before they accepted Islam, Umar radiya Allahu anahu buried his daughter, she was wiping the sand off his...