azmathmoosa
Junior Member
Salaam.
My problem is very complicated and is constantly keeping me at discomfort. You see, I used to be a die hard fan of computers and video games and every other gadget that came out. In my engineering course's final year, I suddenly gained Hidaya and now pray regularly and listen to Islamic lectures and Qirats ALL the time. (No more vid games and any other hobby).
Now, doing anything that has to do with dunya makes me feel that i'm wasting my time. For example, while reading the newspaper a thought comes to me, "What difference does reading it gonna make? Its just full of wordly news and most of it is a lie...", then i lose all motivation for reading it. Then when i sit down to study, another thought comes to me "What difference does it make? You don't have to become an above average student, just pass the exams and get some job to feed yourself, you don't have to get a shining career as it is of no use to you (at eternal level). Besides, irrespective of your actions, sustenance is provided only by Allah. Just keep asking Dua' and dont stress yourself (In other words DON'T WORK HARD!).".
I lose all motivation to study hard and score well.
While I pray peacefully and all, i feel really bad. As if i'm deteriorating myself. I listen to my Brains not my heart. Which is why i'm not able to do anything about it. (I can't tell myself to work hard just to make my self feel better. My Brain tells me that the temporary feeling of accomplishment is only a belief and has no real value. If working hard hard for worldly things is a waste of time and life, then irrespective of how inconvenient the Truth is, it is THE Truth and one way or the other it has to be digested.) I'm emotionally feeling bad and incomplete.
My brain will only listen if you can prove to me that Islam requires in one way or the other to work hard even for things of the dunya!
My problem is very complicated and is constantly keeping me at discomfort. You see, I used to be a die hard fan of computers and video games and every other gadget that came out. In my engineering course's final year, I suddenly gained Hidaya and now pray regularly and listen to Islamic lectures and Qirats ALL the time. (No more vid games and any other hobby).
Now, doing anything that has to do with dunya makes me feel that i'm wasting my time. For example, while reading the newspaper a thought comes to me, "What difference does reading it gonna make? Its just full of wordly news and most of it is a lie...", then i lose all motivation for reading it. Then when i sit down to study, another thought comes to me "What difference does it make? You don't have to become an above average student, just pass the exams and get some job to feed yourself, you don't have to get a shining career as it is of no use to you (at eternal level). Besides, irrespective of your actions, sustenance is provided only by Allah. Just keep asking Dua' and dont stress yourself (In other words DON'T WORK HARD!).".
I lose all motivation to study hard and score well.
While I pray peacefully and all, i feel really bad. As if i'm deteriorating myself. I listen to my Brains not my heart. Which is why i'm not able to do anything about it. (I can't tell myself to work hard just to make my self feel better. My Brain tells me that the temporary feeling of accomplishment is only a belief and has no real value. If working hard hard for worldly things is a waste of time and life, then irrespective of how inconvenient the Truth is, it is THE Truth and one way or the other it has to be digested.) I'm emotionally feeling bad and incomplete.
My brain will only listen if you can prove to me that Islam requires in one way or the other to work hard even for things of the dunya!