candy candy
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Salam
Friends I have been writing to this forum for many months due to the problems i have been facing and fortunately I have received the best suggestions, comments and advice over the pathetic matters happened in my life...but still today My heart is so heavy and dull...The feelings of regret over fornication and so called love have dwelled envy and exasperation inside me against the people whom i see happy and satisfied....I dont know whats wrong with me....I pray and read Quran alot and do zikr but it seems that the Allah is angry with me and Allah should be because I crossed the limits and transgressed the limits of Islam....but Allah is Oft Forgiving then why Allah is not listening to me and If Allah is listening then why i am still facing this tough situation...even right now i am in my office but i really want to hit my head hard into the wall and want to kill that S***bag and want to kill his Ex girl due to which he did all this to me...but at the sametime i think about the reality also....the reality is that he was not completely responsible for everything and I dont even know that lady from whom i feel jealous....Sometimes i feel like why the people are happy and why i am not...how people successfully manage relationships and get the love of their life and live happily...why the things dont work for me....I am an unsuccessful girl....I always wanted to marry and still I want to but I dont know why i cant forget him...I curse him curse him and curse him because i have gone crazy....
Goshhhh.....whats wrong with me....I want to get out of all this but nothing is happening in my favour....then i think that i would keep myself busy in my work but my job is so weird and pathetic that i cant keep myself busy even....i dont know why this mess up is not ending up....Why Allah is not lessening the tensions and burdens for me....I know this is not right to complain but i am so tired and messed up....i was never like this, i was full of life and so good but the kick in love has ruined me and has shattered my girly dreams and everything....
I dont know what to do and what not to do....I just want to know how to forget him and everything...i dont want to be a sinner anymore....i dont want to commit any sin ....i dont want to hurt anyone.....i dnt want to do anything that could make Allah angry....might be i am facing the punishment of my sins but i know Allah is oft forgiving....
I am really upset right now...it seems like that i wont ever find a loving man....it seems as that i wont be happy again and i would stay the same....Gosh....i dont know what to do....my heart is so heavy and hurt....i am having tears in my eyes....i keep on crying the whole day that whats wrong with me....i know i have gone crazy and i wont be fine ever....my family feels as i wont be able to find a good man ever.,...even they are facing so problems regarding finding a perfect match....they dont know what to do and what not to do.....Gosh....dont know what to write....
please guide and pray for me.....
Friends I have been writing to this forum for many months due to the problems i have been facing and fortunately I have received the best suggestions, comments and advice over the pathetic matters happened in my life...but still today My heart is so heavy and dull...The feelings of regret over fornication and so called love have dwelled envy and exasperation inside me against the people whom i see happy and satisfied....I dont know whats wrong with me....I pray and read Quran alot and do zikr but it seems that the Allah is angry with me and Allah should be because I crossed the limits and transgressed the limits of Islam....but Allah is Oft Forgiving then why Allah is not listening to me and If Allah is listening then why i am still facing this tough situation...even right now i am in my office but i really want to hit my head hard into the wall and want to kill that S***bag and want to kill his Ex girl due to which he did all this to me...but at the sametime i think about the reality also....the reality is that he was not completely responsible for everything and I dont even know that lady from whom i feel jealous....Sometimes i feel like why the people are happy and why i am not...how people successfully manage relationships and get the love of their life and live happily...why the things dont work for me....I am an unsuccessful girl....I always wanted to marry and still I want to but I dont know why i cant forget him...I curse him curse him and curse him because i have gone crazy....
Goshhhh.....whats wrong with me....I want to get out of all this but nothing is happening in my favour....then i think that i would keep myself busy in my work but my job is so weird and pathetic that i cant keep myself busy even....i dont know why this mess up is not ending up....Why Allah is not lessening the tensions and burdens for me....I know this is not right to complain but i am so tired and messed up....i was never like this, i was full of life and so good but the kick in love has ruined me and has shattered my girly dreams and everything....
I dont know what to do and what not to do....I just want to know how to forget him and everything...i dont want to be a sinner anymore....i dont want to commit any sin ....i dont want to hurt anyone.....i dnt want to do anything that could make Allah angry....might be i am facing the punishment of my sins but i know Allah is oft forgiving....
I am really upset right now...it seems like that i wont ever find a loving man....it seems as that i wont be happy again and i would stay the same....Gosh....i dont know what to do....my heart is so heavy and hurt....i am having tears in my eyes....i keep on crying the whole day that whats wrong with me....i know i have gone crazy and i wont be fine ever....my family feels as i wont be able to find a good man ever.,...even they are facing so problems regarding finding a perfect match....they dont know what to do and what not to do.....Gosh....dont know what to write....
please guide and pray for me.....