Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu,
Alhamdulillah, I finally take my shahada yesterday, first alone at 3:30 a.m. and then at the masjid with the sheikh and some friends at 15:30 p.m.
I felt muslim for so long inside... but I had to study Islam carefully because I had previous bad experience ... so I take a deep study of Islam and I've carefully compared it with Christianity and Judaism... I've read the entire translation of Qur'an and the entire Bible also in order to take my own conclusions... I've been reading lots of islamic books as well... And as I read the Bible and the Qur'an translation I was becoming more and more sure about the pure and preserved essence of islam, its logic, its coherence, its simplicity and how complete it is.
Alhamdulillah i've learned to read arabic so now I'm able to read the Qur'an. InshaAllah I hope to learn arabic grammar as well in order to better understand it.
There are lots of things that made me become a muslim but I think the main thing was tawhid, the unicity of Allah SWT, the pure monotheism, the deep respect for all messengers and the beauty and strenght of the final testament revealed to our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW, as well as his perfect life example to all of mankind.
InshaAllah I hope to keep learning and becoming a better muslim every day, closer to Allah SWT, I hope to have streght to follow Islam in a non-muslim home (I reverted in secret) and I hope to share my experience and knowledge with others who became curious about our deen, as I was before studying Islam.
May Allah bless you all my sisters and brothers in Islam, because here on TTI I had gained lots of information that was and has been quite useful prior to my classes at the masjid that only began 6 months ago. JazakaAllah khair for your help and may Allah reward those who have helped in this process of study in order to revert to Allah SWT. Ameen.
Ma'salama
Congratulations on your sincere acceptance of Islam. I loved reading your post and understand your earnest endeavour to be certain. It is wonderful and I know you must feel how 'right' it is.
I converted just two days before. We have both started 2010 perfectly. I feel I should copy my post from a day ago too for you to read. Here it is! (Soon I have two more great stories to go with it.)
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Thank you so much for your replies...
I have some good news.... after reading intensley about Ilsam for about 14 months I was lead to perform wudu and try a prayer. I called my husband (who is far away at the moment) to tell him. I thought I heard him sniffling and I asked if he was crying.. He was.... it warmed my heart so much and felt a lot of love.
That night I woke up at 4 am from a terrifying dream - although it did have something good in it which I didnt realise until I felt brave enought to rethink the dream. Basically in the dream I was being terrorized by lots of evil women - it was truly horrible. Suddenly I figured out I could fly if I mad enough effort (flapping my arms... authentic flying...) and escaped. Meanwhile my husband and one of my husband's brothers had been searching for a long time to try and find me. First in my dream I saw my husband's brother and he was so surprised and said, "You came so quickly!! I cant believeit... we thought we would not see you for a long time and we were so worried" Next my husband came out of the car and we just looked into each others eyes. Some more scarey events happened after that but I dont want to write about it.
The intersting thing about this dream is first: My brother's husband has recently completed (November)Haaj in Saudi Arabia. Apparently he had been crying a lot for me that I would accept Islam and I would be reunited with my Husband soon. My husband said his brother has cried a lot for me. I am really thinking that because my his brother had prayed for me during haaj that this is why I saw him first in my dream and that "you come so quickly" refers to "you accepted Islam so quickly"
So the next day I do wudu and try again at prayer. My husband calls and I start trying to say namaaz in Arabic to him. Then I tell him that I DO beleie that Muhammad is a prophet and messenger of God. And I REALLLY DO believe the Quaran. I really struggled to say "I am now muslim" because I have been Christian for so long. I felt incredibly shy to talk about it to my husband despite him being the kindest (yet strongest) person I know. It was very emotional because he was sniffling so much and so incredibly excited (he NEVER usually cries).
The rest of the night he called all his family members to say I had accepted Islam. At 11:30 pm last night I was talking to his other family members even though I couldnt understand them (they speak very little English).
I am very touched that they are all so happy. I am sad that now I am a muslim with no muslims around me... Please pray my husband is with me soon as I feel I need him. But then I guess God wants me to do this alone for now....
Hope you like my post...
Congratulations on your sincere acceptance of Islam. I loved reading your post and understand your earnest endeavour to be certain. It is wonderful and I know you must feel how 'right' it is.
I converted just two days before. We have both started 2010 perfectly. I feel I should copy my post from a day ago too for you to read. Here it is! (Soon I have two more great stories to go with it.)
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Thank you so much for your replies...
I have some good news.... after reading intensley about Ilsam for about 14 months I was lead to perform wudu and try a prayer. I called my husband (who is far away at the moment) to tell him. I thought I heard him sniffling and I asked if he was crying.. He was.... it warmed my heart so much and felt a lot of love.
That night I woke up at 4 am from a terrifying dream - although it did have something good in it which I didnt realise until I felt brave enought to rethink the dream. Basically in the dream I was being terrorized by lots of evil women - it was truly horrible. Suddenly I figured out I could fly if I mad enough effort (flapping my arms... authentic flying...) and escaped. Meanwhile my husband and one of my husband's brothers had been searching for a long time to try and find me. First in my dream I saw my husband's brother and he was so surprised and said, "You came so quickly!! I cant believeit... we thought we would not see you for a long time and we were so worried" Next my husband came out of the car and we just looked into each others eyes. Some more scarey events happened after that but I dont want to write about it.
The intersting thing about this dream is first: My brother's husband has recently completed (November)Haaj in Saudi Arabia. Apparently he had been crying a lot for me that I would accept Islam and I would be reunited with my Husband soon. My husband said his brother has cried a lot for me. I am really thinking that because my his brother had prayed for me during haaj that this is why I saw him first in my dream and that "you come so quickly" refers to "you accepted Islam so quickly"
So the next day I do wudu and try again at prayer. My husband calls and I start trying to say namaaz in Arabic to him. Then I tell him that I DO beleie that Muhammad is a prophet and messenger of God. And I REALLLY DO believe the Quaran. I really struggled to say "I am now muslim" because I have been Christian for so long. I felt incredibly shy to talk about it to my husband despite him being the kindest (yet strongest) person I know. It was very emotional because he was sniffling so much and so incredibly excited (he NEVER usually cries).
The rest of the night he called all his family members to say I had accepted Islam. At 11:30 pm last night I was talking to his other family members even though I couldnt understand them (they speak very little English).
I am very touched that they are all so happy. I am sad that now I am a muslim with no muslims around me... Please pray my husband is with me soon as I feel I need him. But then I guess God wants me to do this alone for now....
Hope you like my post...