As-salam 3alikom warahmatoallah wabarakatoh (peace be up on u )
Dear friend
It seems that u r a step about to be muslim
The matter is so easy
Do not be hesitated
( these thoughts are from the satan ,,, because it knows that u love islam and want it so it is doing its best to make u away from this great step because it does not want any one enter paradise but enter hell with it )
Friend ,,,,
The beard is one law of islam and it is forbidden for men to shave their beards as u said ,, this is in general
But if a muslim faces a problem in doing something of islam and he is truthful from his heart that if the conditions become better he will obey allah
Dear friend islam is soooooooooooo easy
And allah is merciful and he does not want to punish us , on the contrary allah wants from all people to enter the paradise and be happy ,, but for sorry people who refuses
Do u know that it is the same case in some Islamic countries among of them my country Egypt
?( I am speaking about shaving the beard in the army and police is mandatory ,and also in the usual life ,, a lot of men here in Egypt facing troubles because of their beards ,, the government and a lot of people also here are fighting any apparent remark of islam like the beard claiming that the beard is not obligatory and so on ),,,,, the one who enters army must shave his beard ,,, by that can we say he leave islam because he shaved his beard ?
Of course not
He is still muslim
See friend ,,,,,,,, in general allah orderd us to do some obligations and interdict us from doing certain things and who does not obey allah will be punishaed on the day of judgment and also may be in the real life if he did not make repentance to allah and say sorry for his sins
This is in general
But if a person can not do some of the orders or did some of prohibitions either he did so with forgetfulness or by mistake or by force and he is truthful may allah forgive him Godwilling for this
See dear friend
There is no problem
And these r a part from an answer I found in a question on the site islam question and answer
www.islamqa.com/en
Thus it will become clear to you that so long as you are unable to practise the rituals of Islam, then Allaah by His mercy will excuse you, and whatever you are able to do, then you are obliged to do it, even if you do it in secret. If you have to put up with some difficulties that you are able to bear in order to do that, then Allaah will reward greatly the one who patiently bears hardship for His sake and for the sake of His religion.
Another thing
As u r reading the Qur'an for sure u know that there is punishment for disbelievers in the hereafter ,,, and u know the Qur'an is truthful and islam is right so there will be a day of judgment and hell for disbelievers and also paradise for believers
After u know all of this u r hesitating?
Friend
Our real life ( donia ) will end ,,,, there is no doubt of that ,,, and will remain the fate of every person that he choosed for himself in that ( donia ) ,,, either the paradise or the hell
Friend ,,,, this life that we r living in is a test and there must be some difficulties that will face us on our way to allah for allah to see what people will do ,,,,, of course who will be patient and prefer what allah orderd ( as possible as he can ) will win and who is not and did every thing he wants and did not be limited with the islamic regulations will loose
U may need to sacrifice by somethings which r beloved to u for the sake of allah and who will win at last is u not any one else
,,,, u r the winner
Dear friend when islam was establishing ,, allsh did not send to the prophet Muhammad ( pbuh ) angels ,,,, no the prophet at first faced his tribe by himself , alone and then some people listened to him and knew that he is truthful and believed in his message ,,,, those people were called the companions
they were weak and the whole environment was fighting them and a lot of them was plagued and killed and they were been sieged for three years with no food except the leaves of the trees and they leaved their land ( Mekka ) leaving with it their money ,properties, families and wifes ( if a man became a muslim and his wife refused islam ) and husbands ( if a woman became a muslim and here husband refused islam ) and every thing thy they were owing and went to another land ( yethrib ,, Meddenah ) with nothing,,, and then there were wars and they must sacrifice by their life for the survival of islam
They sacrificed by money , properities, their home, their families and also their lifes
See friend ,,,,, why did not one of them said ooh it is so difficult and hard I would leave islam
No ,,, they never did ,,, u know why ?
Because they knew that Muhammad ( pbuh) is truthful and he is not lying and then became assured by the miracles with him ,,, they were sure that islam is from allah ,, so there will be a life after death and believers will enter paradise and disbelievers will enter hell,,, and they were believing and wanted to enter paradise so that they beard every difficulty faced them
See friend ,, this is the solution
I advice u to study the history of islam and how did it established and study the life of the prophet Muhammad ( pbuh ) and his moral valus and also study miracles of the Qur'an and the Sunnah
And at last never forget to ask God to guide u
And remember if the whole worled was fighting u even ur parents and friends and u b alone do not care and remember ur self always with the life after death and no one in this world will benefit u even ur parents
U will die alone and will be in the grave alone and on the day of judgment u will be alone
No one can safe u
So safe ur self from now
I hope that u hear my words by ur heart
Do not hesitate ,,, take the step and trust that allah will never leave u
May allah guide u to the straight path
Again I thank everyone for their support, and I wish your son well in the CAP, it's an absolutely wonderful organization, but rather beyond the scope of this discussion 
