Asalaam Malikum,
Its me again posting, but I have no one esle to talk to but you guys my muslim brothers and sisters. I want to tell you my whole story about me and my fiance met and how I wasnt muslim yet. This was back in summer 2009 in Jersey City, NJ. I was at a friends house visiting them and he so happen to be there at the same time. He asked me out and we did go out and get to know each other. I did not know anything about islam, until he brought it up. I really did not pay attention sometimes when he talked about it but when i really wanted to know more about it, it drawn me closer to Allah (swt) this feeling never made me feel more complete in my life. the things that have i gone through in life made things alot more better knowing the life being a muslim. praying 5 times a day made so much more sense to me know than it had ever before. He had help me to know more about islam what the dunya is what is haram what is not. he reminds me alot all about it and allhadulih that he had propossed to me and I am wiling to spend my life with him inshaallaah. But sometimes he takes to much of his culture out of me that i cant understand he is Arabic and im not. we totaly grew up in different ways and how i grew up, with out a father having step sister and etc. But sometimes i feel like we are not ment to get married im always mad and angry because he would leave me by my self at home doing nothing. Are we muslim women suppose to be stuck at home doing nothing at all in out lives? I work 5 times a week, he hasnt managed to look for a job yet, he always says tomorrow. He barely spends time with me and sometimes i get sick of it and i just really want to go home to my family and be with them (back in the Philippines). I dont feel the same way as it was before with me and him. All i want to do right now is to be home with my siblings and my mom. thats all. should i go for going back to the Philippines? Or should i stay and be patient inshaallah things might go back in place? i dont know im confused and scared.
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Its me again posting, but I have no one esle to talk to but you guys my muslim brothers and sisters. I want to tell you my whole story about me and my fiance met and how I wasnt muslim yet. This was back in summer 2009 in Jersey City, NJ. I was at a friends house visiting them and he so happen to be there at the same time. He asked me out and we did go out and get to know each other. I did not know anything about islam, until he brought it up. I really did not pay attention sometimes when he talked about it but when i really wanted to know more about it, it drawn me closer to Allah (swt) this feeling never made me feel more complete in my life. the things that have i gone through in life made things alot more better knowing the life being a muslim. praying 5 times a day made so much more sense to me know than it had ever before. He had help me to know more about islam what the dunya is what is haram what is not. he reminds me alot all about it and allhadulih that he had propossed to me and I am wiling to spend my life with him inshaallaah. But sometimes he takes to much of his culture out of me that i cant understand he is Arabic and im not. we totaly grew up in different ways and how i grew up, with out a father having step sister and etc. But sometimes i feel like we are not ment to get married im always mad and angry because he would leave me by my self at home doing nothing. Are we muslim women suppose to be stuck at home doing nothing at all in out lives? I work 5 times a week, he hasnt managed to look for a job yet, he always says tomorrow. He barely spends time with me and sometimes i get sick of it and i just really want to go home to my family and be with them (back in the Philippines). I dont feel the same way as it was before with me and him. All i want to do right now is to be home with my siblings and my mom. thats all. should i go for going back to the Philippines? Or should i stay and be patient inshaallah things might go back in place? i dont know im confused and scared.
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