Roaa_Ahmed
Junior Member
Assalamualaikom, I'm a tenth grade girl and I've been having some problems with my istikhara. I live in a muslim country but I just joined a school last two years where I REALLY have no friends in there. It's not that I can't make some or something but it's that this school has no much students! only just a group of girls who are like extremely impolite and are a real shame to Islam. And so, I just had to get away from them since Prophet Muhammed ordered us not to make friends with those people for what I remember. Now I'm just alone, I don't have friends, AT ALL. And it really hurts me when I see people at my age hanging out with their friends, having fun and stuff-like. I prayed to Allah alot about having friends for the last couple years till I finally accepted my situation. However, now just a thought came into my mind about moving to my old school in my old city. But the problem is that I don't think that my mom would accept this because she can't leave her job and I think she won't let me live alone in my old city. I prayed istikhara, and I'm just having a great feeling like "Go for it!!". And so I started to make plans about it like finding an apartment, and stuff-like, and I see everything is going well and easily. The last step is just to ask my mother about it but I'm just having a big feeling of fear or maybe I just feel like I'm going to fail or perhaps just hesitated. I've prayed about 3 to 4 istikharas about moving to this school now and I still feel like wanting it. But just afraid to confront my mother! Should I talk to her or what?