Asalamualaykum everyone,
My name is N u r A i n and I am from Singapore.
I was born Muslim, however somewhere along the line I lost my sense of purpose and direction. I started picking up smoking and drinking, and mixing with bad company of friends. Not very long later, I suffered from depression.
It came to a point where I relied heavily on medication -- I was heavily sedated yet it didn't make me feel any relaxed or better. The obvious solution was there, I knew, and became convinced when my mother spoke to me one day and said, the only solution is to seek Allah.
The solution like I mentioned, was obvious. Yet I did not perform my obligatory duties as a Muslim, I did not seek Allah nor think of him. I had forgotten Allah.
Things took a different turn when I had bad dreams continuously for two weeks. I knew it was Shaiton toying with my sleep, I usually end up waking up reading the Ayat-ul Qursy.
Until one day, I dreamt my parents passed away. They returned with a message for me, looking sad. I woke up crying and wondering, what kind of a daughter I am not being able to du'ah for my poor parents?
I seek Allah. And Allah has given me hidayah. I am happy to see many muslims here, professing love for Allah and Rasulullah. I am really pleased. Surely, we are all followers of the truth, alhamdulillah.
I take one day at a time and Alhamdulillah, have snapped out of the depression. Many aspects of my life has improved, thank you to Allah SWT for giving me hidayah. Right now, I am thinking of wearing a hijjab, and would like to find strength to be able to carry it out. I believe in the modesty promised.
Thank you all for reading.
Rgds
N u r A i n