I use to feel scared about these things sometimes when I thought about it. Like I was at the Jamaat last week, and than the Uncles and the Brother were sleeping in a room. And so my Uncle and I wer the only ones who wer going to do Tahajudd, and so I went to do Wudhu, and it took me the regular 10-20 minutes, because I wanted to do it correctly, and by the time I finished I got out and my Uncle was over doing Tahajudd in the larger room wer they do Salat.
And so he told me to turn the lights off, and leave the one in the kitchen on. And so he went to slep. Everybody was in the room in the Brothers entrance (at the front), and that was next to the kitchen with two doors. I was scared of beign alone and stuff, so I put a napkin on the floor for my Sajdah place, and I started doing Tahajudd.
Mashallah I did it like how I try to do for all my Salat, by doing it sincerely. It takes me 5-10 minutes jsut for 2 Rakah Magreib Sunnah, LoL, and I think that time it took me like half an hour to an hour, Subhanallah.
But when I was doing Salat I started feling a bit scared being alone. Like as if I thought hat ther might be a Jinn behind me trying to do something to me, and I was thinking about just doing my Witr and 2 Rakah Tahajudd, but you know what? I didn't.
I started yelling at myself in my head as I was doing Salat, I was saying to myself, "What's wrong with you? What? Your scared of a pathetic Jinn? Who are you scared of? Who is your Lord? Do you fear a measly Jinn or do you fear Allah Ta Alla?"
And I started remembering the last part from this Ayat from Surat Ali Imraan that I heard from Sheikh Muhamad Al Luhaidan, which was, "So fear me, if you are Truly Beleivers!"
And the way he, the great Sheikh, Rahmatullah Alayh spoke, was in my head, "Inn KungTum Mut Me Neen," and that made me feel stronger, more firm in my feet.
And I knew that there's amny reasons why a Jinn incident might never happen to me:
Because Jinn are scared of those who want to, and try their best to be the Obediant Slaves of their Lord, and I'm close to a Salafiyyah, and I dress like one. And that's truly me, words that are from my heart, I'm not boasting, just telling like it is. But anyway;
And they have mroe important matters to do. Like make me get off the path of being in Allah Ta Alla's pleasure and happiness. A thing they mgiht do is tell me, "Oh, jsut slep for 5 minutes, and than I wake up an hour later missing my Salat," or have this girl try to flirt with me at school adn think, oh, jsut do Taubah, or they'll jsut make me feel to tired that I don't caer about it and let them do stuff like that, becuase I never let that happen if I'm in my senses.
And the last is that I understand and know when I'm being WasWased, and when I'm doing Salat and something stupid comes to my mind, I start turning aound and saying, "Man I know your right ther talking to me, doing Was was, so just shut up!" And since I'm basically wierd, yeah, I say that to Jinns. Even if I can't see them, I know that they're present there and doing WasWas at me. And than I also call upon Allah Ta Alla right ther, I yell the Kalimah with my heart and say to Allah Ta Alla to send this Shaytaan away so I can do my Salat peacfully and hapilly, and than that's it, for now.
And so anyway, waht happened afterwards:
So I started feeling like my Eman was being raised in the clouds of Jannah, and my mind was like as if I was in Baytul Muqqadas, and that I was leading the Salat with all the Malayka behind me doing Salat with me, and I started thing that if the Jinn wants to hurt me, than let it so, Allah Ta Alla won't let it happe nto me unless he wants to, and I knew that Allah Ta Alla wouldn't want my life to end without getting closer to my dreams of beign an Ulemah, and than I also started thing that if the Jinn would try to do anything, than the Malayka (since they coem down to the whoever's doing Zikr of Allah Ta Alla, and I was doing so in my Salat), would chase tham away, but in my heart, I felt like I didn't care, all I cared about was pelasing my Lord, Allah Subhana Wa Ta Alla Azwaajel Akbar Al Adheeman.
And I raised my voice high, and it was like as if I thought hat all the Malayka in this world and in Jannah stop to listen to my Zikr, of the Boy Abdul Hasib. And I was kinda worried that I'd wake everyone up to
, but Mashallah everyone was sound asleep after I walked in the room
. And so I fell asleep, dreaming about the wonders of Jannah, dreaming aobut my brothers and sisters on Turn To Islam, and I slept peacefully.
Subhanallah............
And this is the part from Surah Ali Imran. Jsut go to 2:37 to go past the story of Uhud.
So, I hope you all liked my story. It might seem a bit funny, and a bit dumb, like, man, little kids, such dreams
, but hey, it feels great to say this. And I hope it helped many of you to contempalte and remember your duty towards Allah Ta Alla, and that whevner you remember these things, remember, "I fear none but Allah Ta Alla," shout it in your head if you need to! Shout it out loud! This raises your Eman ,and than you know that there is nothing that can maek you, not even a Shaytan, that can make you not listen and obey your Lord.
And I also hope that readind this made alot of you feel better to.
Well, Jazakallak Kyr Wa Barakallahu Feek for reading, Assalamu Alykum Warahmatullahe Wa Barakathuh.