Ladybug3478
Junior Member
Salam 
,
I'm going to take some time off and thought it would be a nice gesture to let you all know (learned that here at TTI). It's been great learning from all of you at TTI. After years of searching and many late nights trying to grasp an understanding of the road that should be taken...it's so nice to finally have that come to an end. It'll be great to have some normalcy in my life. Inshallah. In addition, I think it took me so long because I used the statement "I'm not Muslim" to continue some of my old habits and not have to feel too guilty. Well, it's a shame since I kept saying..."I just want to please Allah". But, all praises belong to Allah as he has shown the way. I may have crawled and it took quite some time but, it was worth it. I also said that I wasn't going to send an email letting everyone know of my decision because I felt uncomfortable telling everyone and waiting for the responses but, this seems almost the same...oh, well.
Yesterday, while in the park, I asked a woman if she went to Mosque and she said 'yes'. She told me about her Mosque, gave me her phone number in case I had questions, and offered to help me with putting on the hijab. I did not have a Hijab on instead, my outfit consisted of a knitted hat with long pants and a long sleeve shirt. Again, it makes me somewhat upset at myself because I said "I only want to please Allah" but, then I can't even put on the Hijab (I've worn scarves and hats but, never went full Hijab). But, I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Inshallah, the Mosque will work out and once I'm within the Muslim community...wearing the Hijab will become the norm. Inshallah. The Mosque she attends is actually the Mosque I went to before requesting lessons. There is a previous post that I explained my experiences. I said the young man was a little suspicious of me but, I should not have judged him. Allah please forgive me. This young man did take the time to speak with me and my son and besides...I don't know his experiences. He was a person who's dress was of Islamic wear (long shirt and cap...sorry that I don't know what it's called). In addition, the older man was very gracious. Inshallah my family and I will benefit a great deal. Inshallah.
So, I'm taking the break because now that my search is over...I need to get a grip...and learn about my new religion, learn how to pray correctly words and motions(by memory), reread the Quran, and Inshallah I'd like to memorize the 99 names of Allah along with an understanding.
I'll be back because you are all so intelligent and helpful. This site is a real Gem.
Wa'alaikumussalam
,I'm going to take some time off and thought it would be a nice gesture to let you all know (learned that here at TTI
). It's been great learning from all of you at TTI. After years of searching and many late nights trying to grasp an understanding of the road that should be taken...it's so nice to finally have that come to an end. It'll be great to have some normalcy in my life. Inshallah. In addition, I think it took me so long because I used the statement "I'm not Muslim" to continue some of my old habits and not have to feel too guilty. Well, it's a shame since I kept saying..."I just want to please Allah". But, all praises belong to Allah as he has shown the way. I may have crawled and it took quite some time but, it was worth it. I also said that I wasn't going to send an email letting everyone know of my decision because I felt uncomfortable telling everyone and waiting for the responses but, this seems almost the same...oh, well.Yesterday, while in the park, I asked a woman if she went to Mosque and she said 'yes'. She told me about her Mosque, gave me her phone number in case I had questions, and offered to help me with putting on the hijab. I did not have a Hijab on instead, my outfit consisted of a knitted hat with long pants and a long sleeve shirt. Again, it makes me somewhat upset at myself because I said "I only want to please Allah" but, then I can't even put on the Hijab (I've worn scarves and hats but, never went full Hijab). But, I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Inshallah, the Mosque will work out and once I'm within the Muslim community...wearing the Hijab will become the norm. Inshallah. The Mosque she attends is actually the Mosque I went to before requesting lessons. There is a previous post that I explained my experiences. I said the young man was a little suspicious of me but, I should not have judged him. Allah please forgive me. This young man did take the time to speak with me and my son and besides...I don't know his experiences. He was a person who's dress was of Islamic wear (long shirt and cap...sorry that I don't know what it's called). In addition, the older man was very gracious. Inshallah my family and I will benefit a great deal. Inshallah.
So, I'm taking the break because now that my search is over...I need to get a grip...and learn about my new religion, learn how to pray correctly words and motions(by memory), reread the Quran, and Inshallah I'd like to memorize the 99 names of Allah along with an understanding.
I'll be back because you are all so intelligent and helpful. This site is a real Gem.
Wa'alaikumussalam
