To God I Look For Guidance
Becoming Drug Free
Despicable, disgusting, damning,
I think of myself as I huff
And puff a smoke-filled torch,
And as a rough cough torches my chest.
Where have I gone? What have I done?
It all started by me looking for some fun.
“Something new to try!” I thought to myself,
“It’s not like one time would destroy my health!”
But my health is not the first thing that it went after;
It grabbed my heart, forever making itself the one sought-after.
And now, I’ve forgotten the sound of my own laughter!
The only thing I hear now is the dripping, dripping of my tears.
The fearful drumming of my heart,
The mind-flaying dominance of my fears,
Reality and I are now quite far apart.
A nightmarish limbo, with no end in sight!
But now I must find the strength
To make all things back aright,
To rid myself of this despicable, disgusting, damning
Smoke-filled torch, ever burning bright.
To Him I look for the strength I seek,
From God I’ll find that this bind is weak,
As my desire recoils, and my dark blood leaks,
Today I will finally rid of that which reeks
Of captivating vanity.
Becoming Drug Free
Despicable, disgusting, damning,
I think of myself as I huff
And puff a smoke-filled torch,
And as a rough cough torches my chest.
Where have I gone? What have I done?
It all started by me looking for some fun.
“Something new to try!” I thought to myself,
“It’s not like one time would destroy my health!”
But my health is not the first thing that it went after;
It grabbed my heart, forever making itself the one sought-after.
And now, I’ve forgotten the sound of my own laughter!
The only thing I hear now is the dripping, dripping of my tears.
The fearful drumming of my heart,
The mind-flaying dominance of my fears,
Reality and I are now quite far apart.
A nightmarish limbo, with no end in sight!
But now I must find the strength
To make all things back aright,
To rid myself of this despicable, disgusting, damning
Smoke-filled torch, ever burning bright.
To Him I look for the strength I seek,
From God I’ll find that this bind is weak,
As my desire recoils, and my dark blood leaks,
Today I will finally rid of that which reeks
Of captivating vanity.