hopintobelucky
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I joined the TTI community a few months back but I havent been returning here due to account problems...so frustrating logging in sometimes!! Anyways I think most of you are pros here and I was wondering if you could help me out a little...
You see I have problems with my salah..I have had this problem for a long time now, I CANNOT concentrate in my salah, my imagination suddenly goes so wild as soon as I start my salah, I begin to have insights into my daily activities while I'm praying, and this does not usually happen when I am not praying, I always have those 'eureka' moments in my salah which is so frustrating because when I finish, I don't know what have been reciting, how many sajdahs I have done and whatever was in between so when I finish my salah I would be like where was I!! This is so frustrating, I have to pray over and over again until I feel and iota of confidence that 'maybe' just maybe I did pray correctly! I really dont know what to do and why I can't pray sincerely!!!! It has been going on for years now and Allah has not helped me either....Pls if you know of any supplication that I can make use of or anything/ any food that I can eat that help me perform better prayers I would be so grateful...I'm just dying to get it right...all my family members do it so well and I'm the only one, even for fajar prayers will be spending like almost half an hour praying over and over again, and of course ppl make fun of me coz of that so I give up sometimes....makes me look so crazy! and helpless!!
Problem no2 is related to problem no1. You see since I have to keep praying until I 'think' I got it right, I have developed a fear of salah, I don't really enjoy it and I just don't understand how the prophets seemed to enjoy it, of course I cannot even be anywhere near them but I have this deep fear, especially when it comes to ramadhan, i'm so scared of it!!!!!! twenty rakats we have to pray for taraweeh, omg!!!! I'm so hopeless!!!
But the biggest thing is that last night, I SKIPPED my isha prayer!!!I cannot believe that I've done that, I have never in my life done that!!!! So I just dont know why I did that!?!?!? I was a little tired and then I lying on the bed and then I didn't wake up and now most surprisingly I DONT FEEL THE REGRET THAT I SHOULD BE FEELING! I dont know what has happened to me!! Is it because I started working??? Well, I'm writing this the first thing I got to work today! I'm so aware of my behavior at the cognitive front but at the emotional front I don't know what's going on?!?!?!
Is it because I feel hopeless about my salah?? Because I felt like I would be prayig till 12am that deterred me! I feel like Allah isn't helping me on this one, maybe it's a test but this is seriously SO hard! and I need your help here! I cannot do it alone! Pls you will be rewarded at Allah's expense.(hehe) As for the salah I 'missed' last night well, I don't know what will be done with me?!
Signing off,
Your very troubled sister!!!!!
I joined the TTI community a few months back but I havent been returning here due to account problems...so frustrating logging in sometimes!! Anyways I think most of you are pros here and I was wondering if you could help me out a little...
You see I have problems with my salah..I have had this problem for a long time now, I CANNOT concentrate in my salah, my imagination suddenly goes so wild as soon as I start my salah, I begin to have insights into my daily activities while I'm praying, and this does not usually happen when I am not praying, I always have those 'eureka' moments in my salah which is so frustrating because when I finish, I don't know what have been reciting, how many sajdahs I have done and whatever was in between so when I finish my salah I would be like where was I!! This is so frustrating, I have to pray over and over again until I feel and iota of confidence that 'maybe' just maybe I did pray correctly! I really dont know what to do and why I can't pray sincerely!!!! It has been going on for years now and Allah has not helped me either....Pls if you know of any supplication that I can make use of or anything/ any food that I can eat that help me perform better prayers I would be so grateful...I'm just dying to get it right...all my family members do it so well and I'm the only one, even for fajar prayers will be spending like almost half an hour praying over and over again, and of course ppl make fun of me coz of that so I give up sometimes....makes me look so crazy! and helpless!!
Problem no2 is related to problem no1. You see since I have to keep praying until I 'think' I got it right, I have developed a fear of salah, I don't really enjoy it and I just don't understand how the prophets seemed to enjoy it, of course I cannot even be anywhere near them but I have this deep fear, especially when it comes to ramadhan, i'm so scared of it!!!!!! twenty rakats we have to pray for taraweeh, omg!!!! I'm so hopeless!!!
But the biggest thing is that last night, I SKIPPED my isha prayer!!!I cannot believe that I've done that, I have never in my life done that!!!! So I just dont know why I did that!?!?!? I was a little tired and then I lying on the bed and then I didn't wake up and now most surprisingly I DONT FEEL THE REGRET THAT I SHOULD BE FEELING! I dont know what has happened to me!! Is it because I started working??? Well, I'm writing this the first thing I got to work today! I'm so aware of my behavior at the cognitive front but at the emotional front I don't know what's going on?!?!?!
Is it because I feel hopeless about my salah?? Because I felt like I would be prayig till 12am that deterred me! I feel like Allah isn't helping me on this one, maybe it's a test but this is seriously SO hard! and I need your help here! I cannot do it alone! Pls you will be rewarded at Allah's expense.(hehe) As for the salah I 'missed' last night well, I don't know what will be done with me?!
Signing off,
Your very troubled sister!!!!!