How strong is our 'iman?

[kashif_nazeer]

In the name of Allah,The Most Gracious,The Most Merciful

Assalamu ‘alykum warehmatullahi wabaraktuhu,
Dear brothers and sisters in Islam,today I’m going to share with you an incident that happened with me the night before last that is on the night of 28th February.It was something I had not experienced before,wallahil Adheem,I will not be lying and insha’allah will try to remain true throughout the narration of the incident.
That night ‘isha time after having prayed witr,I stood up for the 2 raka’at nafil.All was well until the middle of first raka’at.
As I was standing in qiyam I started to get a strange feeling I never got before.It was like the irritating feeling one gets all over his skin,like something crawling up your skin,irritating,giving you that itchy feeling.Along with I started to feel like I was going to faint.Although throughout the day I never got that feeling I was healthy Alhamdulillah throughout the day,but then suddenly it all started.After having struggled to complete the salah,struggled like trying to gather consciousness and keeping cool,I got up.After that as I tried to come to turn with what was happening I felt like I was sinking deep into something.
I was scared it was like.. this was it.My time’s up.I’m dead now.AllahHuAkber!I felt so scared.When my mother saw my face that night,she asked my’Why have you made such a face?’When I looked at the mirror my face had grown pale and my hands and feet had grown cold.I was so scared that I was going to die.I couldn’t sleep for a long part of that night out of fear that I may die if I sleep.Wallahil Adheem I had never been so scared in my entire life.Even now as I recall it my hands and feet grow cold.
One thing that I now recall is that when I was in that state of fear,I forgot all my worries and only one wish remained with me TO LIVE.SubhanAllah!
I never realized life was so dear to me.I used to think I had great ‘iman.SubhanAllah…that moment made me know how weak my ‘iman is.When I think its my last few minutes,then I yearn for life.I used to think that I love Allah nad his messenger(sallahu ‘alyhiwasallam) more than my life but that moment proved me wrong.Allah Hu Akbar!
Just that morning I had read a verse from the Qur’an saying ‘…The life of this world is only the enjoyment of a deception.’(3:185) and I forgot it at that very crucial time!!!
It made me realize there is a lot of weakness of ‘iman in me.Now I realize the meaning of hadith whose summary is like …
None of us can have complete ‘iman until we love Allah and his messenger(sallalahu ‘alyhi wasallam) more than anything dear to him EVEN HIS LIFE.Allah Hu Akber!
This I experienced myself wallahil Adheem and it made me realize things I wanted to share.
May Allah guide us all to the straight path and fill us all with complete ‘iman and cleanse us of all sins.
Ameen
Wassalamu ‘alykum warehmatullahi wabarakatuhu.

 

[pcozzy]

:salam2:

Brother,

I feel what you are describing for I had such a similar experience that greatly affected me.

I mean I went over all the fundemental and basic things that must be done to be a muslim. I went over a lot of hadith to try to perfect my wudu, salah, and behaviour. I owe much respect to sheik Albani ra, who clarified things for me too.

I guess that a muslim's nature is that he or she never did enough ibadat in his life to be completely assured no punishment. may be later I will add hadith or what a sheik said about this subject.

For the mean time the surah that I studied very hard after that experience, was a short but very meaningful surah. I recommend, reading more Quran and tafsir too. not that you are not knowledgeable already but just like anything else things appear to catch our attention at time of need.

Here is the video of the surah that caught my attention:

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After going over this small surah, I let my beard grow being full not trimed goat type. And I try recite Quran with it's full rights in tajweed. And I increased making dawaa.
This is how I felt at that time.

Here is a another video that may motivate and reminds us of what is anticipated in the afterlife:
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Lastly at least once a day I say this duaa and it is refered to as sayyed al-istaghfar,

اللّهـمَّ أَنْتَ رَبِّـي لا إلهَ إلاّ أَنْتَ ، خَلَقْتَنـي وَأَنا عَبْـدُك ، وَأَنا عَلـى عَهْـدِكَ وَوَعْـدِكَ ما اسْتَـطَعْـت ، أَعـوذُبِكَ مِنْ شَـرِّ ما صَنَـعْت ، أَبـوءُ لَـكَ بِنِعْـمَتِـكَ عَلَـيَّ وَأَبـوءُ بِذَنْـبي فَاغْفـِرْ لي فَإِنَّـهُ لا يَغْـفِرُ الذُّنـوبَ إِلاّ أَنْتَ .

see mp3 for recitation

Allahumma anta rabbee la ilaha illa ant, khalaqtanee wa-ana AAabduk, wa-ana AAala AAahdika wawaAAdika mas-tataAAt, aAAoothu bika min sharri ma sanaAAt, aboo-o laka biniAAmatika AAalay, wa-aboo-o bithanbee, faghfir lee fa-innahu la yaghfiruth-thunooba illa ant.​

‘O Allah, You are my Lord, none has the right to be worshipped except You, You created me and I am Your servant and I abide to Your covenant and promise as best I can, I take refuge in You from the evil of which I have committed. I acknowledge Your favour upon me and I acknowledge my sin, so forgive me, for verily none can forgive sin except You.’​

This was what I experienced and did , I hope this is of benefit.

Make sure you talk with a Imam about it.

 

[kashif_nazeer]

:salam2:

:salam2:

Brother,

I feel what you are describing for I had such a similar experience that greatly affected me.

I mean I went over all the fundemental and basic things that must be done to be a muslim. I went over a lot of hadith to try to perfect my wudu, salah, and behaviour. I owe much respect to sheik Albani ra, who clarified things for me too.

I guess that a muslim's nature is that he or she never did enough ibadat in his life to be completely assured no punishment. may be later I will add hadith or what a sheik said about this subject.

For the mean time the surah that I studied very hard after that experience, was a short but very meaningful surah. I recommend, reading more Quran and tafsir too. not that you are not knowledgeable already but just like anything else things appear to catch our attention at time of need.

Here is the video of the surah that caught my attention:

[yt]tylu9AxBKxo[/yt]

After going over this small surah, I let my beard grow being full not trimed goat type. And I try recite Quran with it's full rights in tajweed. And I increased making dawaa.
This is how I felt at that time.

Here is a another video that may motivate and reminds us of what is anticipated in the afterlife:
[yt]ukBX2TvfyQE[/yt]

Lastly at least once a day I say this duaa and it is refered to as sayyed al-istaghfar,

اللّهـمَّ أَنْتَ رَبِّـي لا إلهَ إلاّ أَنْتَ ، خَلَقْتَنـي وَأَنا عَبْـدُك ، وَأَنا عَلـى عَهْـدِكَ وَوَعْـدِكَ ما اسْتَـطَعْـت ، أَعـوذُبِكَ مِنْ شَـرِّ ما صَنَـعْت ، أَبـوءُ لَـكَ بِنِعْـمَتِـكَ عَلَـيَّ وَأَبـوءُ بِذَنْـبي فَاغْفـِرْ لي فَإِنَّـهُ لا يَغْـفِرُ الذُّنـوبَ إِلاّ أَنْتَ .

see mp3 for recitation

Allahumma anta rabbee la ilaha illa ant, khalaqtanee wa-ana AAabduk, wa-ana AAala AAahdika wawaAAdika mas-tataAAt, aAAoothu bika min sharri ma sanaAAt, aboo-o laka biniAAmatika AAalay, wa-aboo-o bithanbee, faghfir lee fa-innahu la yaghfiruth-thunooba illa ant.​

‘O Allah, You are my Lord, none has the right to be worshipped except You, You created me and I am Your servant and I abide to Your covenant and promise as best I can, I take refuge in You from the evil of which I have committed. I acknowledge Your favour upon me and I acknowledge my sin, so forgive me, for verily none can forgive sin except You.’​

This was what I experienced and did , I hope this is of benefit.

Make sure you talk with a Imam about it.

:salam2:
jazakAllah khayr brother,
I just went through the video of surah Qiyamah recitation and it shook me.Like I have read it before but it seems like its the first time I read it.Allah Hu Akber!I am downloading the second video and insha'allah will download the mp3.Thanks a lot.Brother the surah al qiyamah is so thought provoking Allah Hu Akber it just cracks open you up inside out,reminding you how hollow life is.The last moment of your life wallahi thats all what matters.Brother its so scary to imagine how it will be on the other side.SubhanAllah the last moments of our life.

 

[Aapa]

Salaam,


How fortunate are you that Allah subhana talla has given you this blessing. Jazaak Allahu Kharin for the videos. Insha"Allah your faith will be rewarded with more faith.

 

[kashif_nazeer]

salam 'alykum akhi
the second video you sent me I watched it.
JazakAllah khayr it was really moving.
Brother one thing more could you refer me some books of sheikh Albani,I heard he is a great scholar masha'allah and after you referred to him in your post ,my interest has grown even more.
JazakAllah khayr.
wa 'alykumassalaam.

 

[pcozzy]

salam 'alykum akhi
the second video you sent me I watched it.
JazakAllah khayr it was really moving.
Brother one thing more could you refer me some books of sheikh Albani,I heard he is a great scholar masha'allah and after you referred to him in your post ,my interest has grown even more.
JazakAllah khayr.
wa 'alykumassalaam.

:salam2:

You can start here: http://abdurrahman.org/scholars/Albanee.html

take your time, read his biography,

then you may want to read The Prophet's Prayer Described(Siffat AsSalah AnNabi,PBUH), http://abdurrahman.org/salah/prophetsprayer.html

I have learned so much from this scholar ra, mashAllah.

Note if you know Arabic you may want to get his books in Arabic.

 

[kashif_nazeer]

Salaam,


How fortunate are you that Allah subhana talla has given you this blessing. Jazaak Allahu Kharin for the videos. Insha"Allah your faith will be rewarded with more faith.

wa 'alykumassalaam mom
Ameen
jazakallah khayran

 

[kashif_nazeer]

:salam2: brother

MAY ALLAH (Subhanahu Wa Ta 'Aala) Ignite True Love In Our Hearts For Our Creator; And May HE Give Us The Ability Regularly In remembrance of Allah (Dhikr) and attend of gathering Dhikr. AMEEN

Sayyed Al-Istighfar is the Sweetness of Your eyes. Keep on reciting after the prayer (3x) and where ever you are. One will establish close communion with Allah, this is when your eyes moist with tears in remembrance of Allah (Dhikr). One will feel, experience, Allah, Who teaches you to seek forgiveness with the beautiful words of Sayyed Al-Istighfar. This is special Gift which one had been given from Allah.

But one must remember that remembrance and repentance did not come from one self, but from Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

It is narrated in a hadith that if mankind knew how much Allah (Subhanahu Wa Ta’aala) loved them they would lose all their senses in ecstasy with happiness and as a result their soul would separate from their body. Allah (Subhanahu Wa Ta’aala) loves us seventy times more than how much a mother loves her newborn child.

However, on Earth we forget about the oath that we made in the other world and occupied ourselves with the transitory worldly love of wives, children and wealth.

Saying of the Salaf

Recitation of Divine words and praises of Allah in prayer, Dhikr (remembrance of Allah have a cumulative effect on the mental powers of man, And in this process of submission of the body and the mind to the Divine Will through the synchronization of movements and recitation of the Qur'anic verses in prayer, the spiritual power of man becomes stronger and gains full control over the physical self and gradually lifts it up to the Supreme Being.

Forget Not: Salat to Prophet Sayyidina Muhammad Sallallahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam in abundant daily.

jazakallah khayr brother
Ameen
wa 'alykumassalam

 

[kashif_nazeer]

:salam2:
It has been 4 days since that night and things have grown worse.I dont visit the forum frequently due to college studies and all.Today I turn to Allah for help and ask my muslim brothers and sisters for advice.Since that night I have been having disturbed sleep throughout and yesterday night was a bit more disturbed.It was confined to night till yesterday night,but now its during the day that I feel restless.It has nearly driven me to the point of insanity.My hand and feet have remained cold throughoutexcept for moments.Even as I type my fingers are cold.I have tests past 2 days and I cant even concentrate on my studies.My mother is worried that why I have made such a face since days.Its like anywhere in my body I feel an unusual moment my heart starts to sink with fear.Even while gulping food.Things have worsened.Am I getting too paranoid?What should I do??
Please pray for me.
Praying for you all.
JazakAllah khayr,

 

[sister amina]

Brother Pcozzy,may allah reward you with firdous al a3la minal jannah.The second video is incredible i was on the verge of tears after seeing.
may we all be blessed on the day of reckoning,and allah subhana wa t3ala keep us all under his shade on the day when there will be no other shade.
ameen.

 

[~Ali_]

:salam2:
It has been 4 days since that night and things have grown worse.I dont visit the forum frequently due to college studies and all.Today I turn to Allah for help and ask my muslim brothers and sisters for advice.Since that night I have been having disturbed sleep throughout and yesterday night was a bit more disturbed.It was confined to night till yesterday night,but now its during the day that I feel restless.It has nearly driven me to the point of insanity.My hand and feet have remained cold throughoutexcept for moments.Even as I type my fingers are cold.I have tests past 2 days and I cant even concentrate on my studies.My mother is worried that why I have made such a face since days.Its like anywhere in my body I feel an unusual moment my heart starts to sink with fear.Even while gulping food.Things have worsened.Am I getting too paranoid?What should I do??
Please pray for me.
Praying for you all.
JazakAllah khayr,

Assalamualaikum brother, use this energy/force - fear of death, to fuel your iman.
Walaikumasalam