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I'm new to this site, but I've already found it very informative and helpful. I am not technically a Muslim, seeing as I haven't said my shahada, and I don't know how to pray (but I really want to learn) and I haven't even come near finishing the Quran, but I've done a lot of research on Islam and I beleive that it is the truth, but as with all people who want to convert I have a lot of worries. My biggest fear is that I would be a bad representative of Islam because of the very bad lifestyle I've lived before and that people will think I'm a hypocrite, now I know that this doesn't matter because only Allah knows what's in your heart and that only Allah is important, but it's still very scary. It also scares me because a lot (and I mean A LOT) of my friends are Muslim, but not the religious kind, the kind that are like yeah I'm Muslim, but never pray or read the Quran, all they do is fast during Ramadan and the rest of the time they party and drink and chase girls. Allah has already given me the strength to stop drinking and partying and to give up boys,and I am grateful, but I know that these Muslim "friends" of mine are going to think that I'm a complete idiot if (hopefully when) I convert. Because we've spoken a lot and they hate hijab because they don't properly understand it so when I start wearing one they'll think I've lost my mind and I know that they'll stop talking to me, they already have because I've stopped partying, but they will completely cut me off and I'm woriied that I don't have the strength to handle all of the pressure. I know that Allah does not put a burden that we can't handle, so hopefully I will take shahada soon, I just ask that you pray for me if you can (and all other's out there who want to convert but are scared.)
Thanks for taking the time to read, and sorry I took longer than I expected.
My Dear Sister, i can understad very well how u feel i'm used to have the same feeling before i embrace islam.
but let me give u a word of advice insha'allah from the botton of my heart:
u Already say:"and I beleive that it is the truth" so u already know so in your heart you are already a Muslimah and to keep yourself from proclaime it testifing your shahada that would it be real hipocrisy as why would u keep denying the truth?
you shouldnt be afraid of accepting islam never mind your past life any fear cames from sheitan and our ego. the most importan thing its to proclaime it first so that will save u from eternal hell fire insha'allah and will bring all the blessins upon u insha'allah.
regarding your non practicing muslims friends weo be sure that when u take ur step forware they will became very happy and u could actualy encorage them to became more aware of their ISlam and practice.
insha'allah you shouldnt be worry about what you dont know for now as that will came step by step islam took 23 years to be reveled so its not espected from u to know everthing insha'allah most important will be for u to star learning the salat and the fundamentals of islam but with out compulsion.
regarding your so call friends of parties weo what can i say are they really your friends? o just convinience party friends? as far as i know a friend its the one who its happy for u when u are doing good and the one who wants you to be gided on the rigth way and would respect your personal desitions
more over you shouldnt worry about them only for dawah in the future but first its your responsability with the truth and Allah subhanah wata'allah.
also u shouldnt be afraid of been alone as u are more than welcome to this big family call Ummah of muslims so u will become our beloved sister in islam and this is closer than blood.
so if u want to testified u are muslim just have to say:
ashadu Anla ilaha ilalah
wa ashadu ana Muhamadan rasululah
i witness there is non deity exept Allah and i testified that Muhamad is his mesanger
u can do it here and we all became witnesses
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salam w