kolimuddin
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:salam2: my dear brothers and sisters,
It would be really appreciated if any of my brothers or sisters in Islam could give me sound advice on the following matter. I know I am at fault and I have a long way to go before I can achieve anything beneficial. So here goes ...
I am someone who is a bit cluster phobic , but especially being surround by so many people. It makes me anxious , nervous , perspire profusely and this does not help me at all if i were to go pray my Salaah in jamaat. Because of this reason I have stopped going to the mosques , everytime i attempt to do such a task it becomes an invitation towards a panic attack. Secondly , i am extremely introverted, other than my wife, i find discomfort in other people's company, I have problems when they stare at me I wish i could be a niqaabi as a guy coz it would help me a LOT.
Secondly I always feel like I dont have the understanding of praying. In the sense that I dont want to be someone who is just reciting without understanding what the ayaah means , to pray like the Prophet (saws) the mindset and the etiquettes of praying, and i end up being really frustrated and angry because I take inspirations of Muslims from the past who consider praying to Allah their source of comfort and bliss and all i see around me are people with their robotic monotonous motion, finishing their salaah quickly and trying to run away.
Allahu Alaam if i am becoming agora phobic but I need help because I already feel like a hypocrite Allahu Alam if i have turned into one. So much restlessness so much worries , I wasn't like this before and I trying to break out of this cycle of anxiety, failure , nervousness and sadness.
Jazak'ALLAH for reading , waiting for reasonable answers from my peeps
It would be really appreciated if any of my brothers or sisters in Islam could give me sound advice on the following matter. I know I am at fault and I have a long way to go before I can achieve anything beneficial. So here goes ...
I am someone who is a bit cluster phobic , but especially being surround by so many people. It makes me anxious , nervous , perspire profusely and this does not help me at all if i were to go pray my Salaah in jamaat. Because of this reason I have stopped going to the mosques , everytime i attempt to do such a task it becomes an invitation towards a panic attack. Secondly , i am extremely introverted, other than my wife, i find discomfort in other people's company, I have problems when they stare at me I wish i could be a niqaabi as a guy coz it would help me a LOT.
Secondly I always feel like I dont have the understanding of praying. In the sense that I dont want to be someone who is just reciting without understanding what the ayaah means , to pray like the Prophet (saws) the mindset and the etiquettes of praying, and i end up being really frustrated and angry because I take inspirations of Muslims from the past who consider praying to Allah their source of comfort and bliss and all i see around me are people with their robotic monotonous motion, finishing their salaah quickly and trying to run away.
Allahu Alaam if i am becoming agora phobic but I need help because I already feel like a hypocrite Allahu Alam if i have turned into one. So much restlessness so much worries , I wasn't like this before and I trying to break out of this cycle of anxiety, failure , nervousness and sadness.
Jazak'ALLAH for reading , waiting for reasonable answers from my peeps
