A strange air in my house

[hayat84]

:salam2:
hoping everybody is in good health and Imaan,I wish to express my gratitude to the ones who gave me good advices with my problem.is it possible that reverted muslims are stronger and weaker at the same time?is shaytan tempting me to surrender and give up,because he wants me to return in his way.it's happening that at the moment a strange air is running in my house.the love between me and my husband got a sort of break.he believes that when I get angry ,I do it because I like make people suffering,while I am aware that during that moment it's like my body is moved from another presence.it's not me.May Allah have mercy upon me.
but in conclusion,I'm happy that I could share those secrets to you and being understood from those who already know this matter

 

[MohammedMaksudul]

:salam2:

May Allah place your love in your husband's heart and his love in yours. And May Allah protect you and your family from the whispers of the devil.

 

[saifkhan]

As salam 'alaykum warahamtu-llah

may Allah protect you and your family from such devilish curse.
may Allah restore the love of you in your husband's heart and same goes for you.

what i can suggest, as per my knowledge:

Enter home with right feet, say Audhubi-llahi minash-shaytwanir rajeem and bismi-llahi Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem
give out salam loudly.

unfortunate, but often it happens, we don't exchange salam with family members. (I mean most cases, not all of course)

when you are cooking, cook in the name of Allah, be neat and clean in sense of physical tahara, I mean.
serve food with right hand and instruct all to read out dua for eating or bismi-llah and eat with right hand.

these things can drive out shaytan from home with the help of Allah.

if you are praying in Jamah in home, make the saff (line) straight and dont allow gap in between.

these may sound small, but they are huge in scale.

and pray to Allah azza wa jal

and our prayers are with you, insha Allah
wassalamun 'alayka

 

[hayat84]

thank you very much for the suggestion.some things like being in an estate of purification it's already done during the day.about cooking and saying bismillah,I do it for everything I do.giving the meal with the right hand,I do it,but in myself I think that it's the same,because my first daughter is born as left hand,she does everything with her left hand.at first I told her to eat with the right hand...then my mother influenced me and said that it's a torture to force a child like I do.so I'm giving up.the sudden absence of feelings,apathy I mean.a sense of guilt and anger crosses me,when I wish to reach the heart of my husband,but something in myself forbides it.I wake up wishing not to fall into the evil.I avoid discussions,but they follow me.in these last days it seems to be in another space-time gate.I don't feel the same.I pray Allah in privacy,'cause of the fear to be badly judged for all the times I am not me.I'm a little confused,I just wait when I'll go to morocco to see the Imam who helped me the first time.I meanwhile suffer for my status.I'm not complaining myself,but I see that everything good I do,flies away.