Salaams brother Hijaz,
What is a sin, what I have advised (would certainly pray not), or that you want to get married to a good Muslimah and, or that you have feelings for a good Muslimah?
All of the above in this lowly man's view are not sins, what you do to reach a satisfactory end to this "dilema" rests in your hands and for those actions I can not state, until i know what it is that you plan, are / is a sin or not.
I would also ask my more learned brothers and sisters on this site to help this poor guy out of his worrisome situation and post a few responses.
In the meantime Brother Hijaz, keep praying, thinking good thoughts and don't worry too much, InshAllah Allah will guide you out of this in to more joyful times very soon, Ameen.
Fi amanAllah
to all my bro/sis i am in cofusion ,i am pure in relgion y because my mam taught me well abut religion ,my sister told me abut a girl one of our distant relative ,she is doing her graduation in chemestry.but i loved her y because ,she is very good in her deen,she has passed islamic education with first rank,she is so pure in her action,all under isalm,i am also seeking 4 agirl like this,to get marry.insha allah after 2 years .but she does not know nothing ,but i am praying to allah swt ,even she selected girls only college,for ,the goodness of this world and hereafter iam prayin so pls advise me
