Assalaam walaikum,
We have discussed your condition. We have been candid with you. I wrote on a similar thread that you are getting something out of this state of mind. If you were not getting some satisfaction you would not remain in this condition. This is the choice you are making.
Stop making excuses. This is Ramadan. This is a holy month and you dare to utter words against the Creator.
You are in control of your actions. Why are you not praying. Part of this is simply arrogance.
How can you come to an Islamic website and when we give you sincere suggestions you do not heed and you write that you are continuing in your behavior.
Please consult a doctor. You may need an emergency referral. I do not wish to ask you questions of a personal nature.
I will make dua for you. I am writing this out of Love. Insha'Allah, you will heal. But, brother, help yourself and seek medical attention i.e. a psychiatric evaluation. Please write down your diet and any medications you are taking.