Guilty Feelings?
Asslamo Allaikum,
Welcome to the family of 1.5 billion. It is a great blessing of the creator to have guided you to Him & His Path, Masha'Allah.
May He give you strength and steadfastness in it (Ameen).
Feeling of guilt is common to many (reverts & born Muslims) and it is actually a sign of faith that you care about something enough to feel guilty about.
We all go through emotional ups and downs and its important to realise that & continue to work. Occasionally we all forget to wake up for Faj'r or fail to do something on time; its part of us as we are all humans.
Allah (SWT) is merciful as He says in the Qur'aan:
[Say "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves (by sinning), do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He Who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.](Az-Zumar 39:53)
Rasul-ullah (Sallaho Alaihe Wassallam) has said,
`Umar ibn Al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him) said: Captives were brought to the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) after a battle. Among them was a woman desperately searching for something. When she laid her eyes on a baby she immediately picked it up, clutched it to her breast and started feeding it. Thereupon, the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) asked, "Do you think this woman would throw her child into a fire?" We said, "Never! By Allah!" The Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) then said, "Allah is more merciful to His slaves than this woman is to her child." (Muslim)
Abu Hurairah narrated that the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) said, "Allah has divided Mercy into one hundred parts. He kept ninety-nine parts with Him and sent down one part to the earth, and because of that one single part, His creatures are merciful to each other, so that even the mare lifts up its hoof away from its foal, lest it should trample it." (Al-Bukhari)
So the point is we turn to Allah (SWT) in peace and adversity and realise that we are NOT perfect and occasionally we will mess up.
My journey to Islam has been a spiritual awakening and I had a great journey. Now that I have been Muslim for over a week, I have been getting guilty feelings. Guilty feelings of missing prayers and not doing them on time and missing many. When my journey began, it was a great learning experience. Now that im Muslim, I feel Ive signed up for tough obligations - which is small compared to the overall blessing but still, the obligations carry guilt if theyre not met.
Any converts here felt some guilt afterwards?