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Dear Brothers and Sisters in Islam..
After many months (literally months) of contemplating in writing on this forum,I have finally decided to do so.
Some may think that I am over reacting but as someone who is trying so hard to practice Islam, I am finding it extremely difficult, as I am constantly battling with my inner soul. WE all know about "was-wasah" (evil whispering of the shaytaan) and I feel as if the shaytaan is constantly placing me under attack. I often fear for my imaan, especially after hearing verses of the Quran and Hadith of the Prophet Muhammed (pbuh) about how some people will die in this world and everyone will read their Janazah and how everyone will think they are Muslim, but when they are awakened on the day of Judgement, they will be raised as Kafir. :astag:
Often, people whom I talk to regarding Islam are of no help either (sorry, I know that sounds bad) especially when it comes to telling me that "deobandis" are bad, dont read Salah behind them or "Brelvis" are bad etc...
I often wander whether I should bayah to a shaykh, but confusion is my state at the moment.
I have simply run out of ideas, on how to deal with my nafs... it is constantly fighting myself and visa versa.
I also wander sometimes, the best way to do sincer taubah...any ideas??
Seljuk
UK
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Islam..
After many months (literally months) of contemplating in writing on this forum,I have finally decided to do so.
Some may think that I am over reacting but as someone who is trying so hard to practice Islam, I am finding it extremely difficult, as I am constantly battling with my inner soul. WE all know about "was-wasah" (evil whispering of the shaytaan) and I feel as if the shaytaan is constantly placing me under attack. I often fear for my imaan, especially after hearing verses of the Quran and Hadith of the Prophet Muhammed (pbuh) about how some people will die in this world and everyone will read their Janazah and how everyone will think they are Muslim, but when they are awakened on the day of Judgement, they will be raised as Kafir. :astag:
Often, people whom I talk to regarding Islam are of no help either (sorry, I know that sounds bad) especially when it comes to telling me that "deobandis" are bad, dont read Salah behind them or "Brelvis" are bad etc...
I often wander whether I should bayah to a shaykh, but confusion is my state at the moment.
I have simply run out of ideas, on how to deal with my nafs... it is constantly fighting myself and visa versa.
I also wander sometimes, the best way to do sincer taubah...any ideas??
Seljuk
UK