Living Soul
Junior Member
:salam2: Brothers and sisters
Am bit tensed these days as some one has called my practising and speaking about islamic teachings as show off. Let me tell you that I used to be a gud practising, enthusiastic Muslimah 2 years before but after moving to the West I started wearing trousers and left praying. It was not intentional although wearing trousers was an inner passion but again it was more of the company in which I was living that lead me to such condition. Abandoning prayers itself is a major sin but I was away from the family had to do work with the non-practising muslims who made me mentally sick , I caught up into troubles one after another. I could not pray to Allah for His help because deep inside I would feel guilty of not praying and thinking why should Allah help me if i am not obeying Him. I did many wrong things just to keep myself normal. I really could not find any way out untill Allah Subhana Watala shown me the right path. Now Alhamdolillah I pray fives times prayer and do not worry about anything.
Now I feel that my first responsibility is to obey Allah and fear Him only. Now I do hijab and Niqab as well Alhamdolillah. On job I do hijab only. But this change in me has made some of my friends to think as if I am just pretending to be good Muslimah and deep inside I am sinful. Whenever I talk to others including friends I strive to start any topic in which I can discuss Islam so that the message of Islam will be conveyed. But this practise of mine is blamed to be as show off. Now I am badly hurt.
Am bit tensed these days as some one has called my practising and speaking about islamic teachings as show off. Let me tell you that I used to be a gud practising, enthusiastic Muslimah 2 years before but after moving to the West I started wearing trousers and left praying. It was not intentional although wearing trousers was an inner passion but again it was more of the company in which I was living that lead me to such condition. Abandoning prayers itself is a major sin but I was away from the family had to do work with the non-practising muslims who made me mentally sick , I caught up into troubles one after another. I could not pray to Allah for His help because deep inside I would feel guilty of not praying and thinking why should Allah help me if i am not obeying Him. I did many wrong things just to keep myself normal. I really could not find any way out untill Allah Subhana Watala shown me the right path. Now Alhamdolillah I pray fives times prayer and do not worry about anything.
Now I feel that my first responsibility is to obey Allah and fear Him only. Now I do hijab and Niqab as well Alhamdolillah. On job I do hijab only. But this change in me has made some of my friends to think as if I am just pretending to be good Muslimah and deep inside I am sinful. Whenever I talk to others including friends I strive to start any topic in which I can discuss Islam so that the message of Islam will be conveyed. But this practise of mine is blamed to be as show off. Now I am badly hurt.