"And there are, certainly, among the people of the Scripture (Jews and Christians), those who believe in Allah and in that which has been revealed to you, and in that which has been revealed to them, humbling themselves before Allah. They do not sell the Verses of Allah for a little price, for them is a reward with their Lord. Surely, Allah is Swift in account."
:salam2: My wonderful Brothers and Sisters,
Ok, so I've always loved this Ayat. I've wrapped it around myself so many times like a warm blanket, its part of me. Today is no different. For those who don't read everything that's posted here, allow me to catch you up.
Today I blew up on a thread about American Indians. I don't blow often and here, I try not to blow at all because I am, after all, just a guest. There was a video link that was posted in the thread of an interview with the owner of "Mecca-Cola". In the interview he said:
"Mecca Cola has nothing to do with any religion even if the name is Mecca. At the beginning, the meaning of Mecca was not, absolutly not the uh the holy city uh of uh Muslim people. It was the American uh Indian Tribe called Mecca and still existing until today and they are specialized on uh specialized special spoecialized on fishing whale and they exist in Washington DC. And uh This tribe WAS killed and genocided by the pioneers."
This man was reffered to as a "really smart and well versed". Unfortunatly, this man's "facts" were all wrong. The tribe in question live in Washington STATE, some 3000 miles away from DC and they are called Makah. That's pronounced "mu-kaw" and they are the only nation who have the legal, federally recognized right to practice whaling....as a mean to feed themselves, not for money making.
Anyways, this man's views were lumped in with an archiology thread which was trying to prove that Muslims were here with the Indian's long before Columbus. I viewed it as cultural theft. I got mad. I blew up and I posted. I was also very wrong for behaving in that manner. I was also diciplined by Creator for it quite promtly..
I rarely get time alone. I am the mother of a wonderful, but rambunctious 32 month old son. My husband works nights so that means he sleeps during the day and is gone at night. I am almost a single parent in that respect. So, when I can, I shower in the dark so I can shut out the world and be with my own thoughts and prayers without distraction. I also have ADD so placing myself into an almost sensory deprivation situation is soothing and relaxes me.
Today was no different. I shut the water off, open the curtain and SQUISH! OH NO! I had turned off the lights BEFORE checking to see if the shower curtain was IN the tub....I had to use all the towels that were in the bathroom in order to wipe up the INCH of water that was all over the floor.
As I stood on my "wet blankets", I realized that the whole time I was in my shower, I was thinking about this post and the aptitude I had used. I had not used that time to regain peace within myself but to continue fanning the heat of anger. I was wrong for doing that. I am sorry.
I took out my anger of cultural theft on the wrong people. I hurt innocent people. I was wrong. I never gave a chance for truth to be accepted. I pre-judged that it would not matter. That so long as the name "Muslim" was connected to something, that nothing and no one else could dissuade anyone here different.
For that, I am sorry.
Now, as an aside, because of my husband's work, we have had to move away from everything and everyone we knew. We are without Ummah you might say. Where we lived, there were powwows and gatherings almost every weekend. Here, there is not even a single powwow. No community. So for everyone who thinks I don't know what its like wearing your shoes, think again. I know more than you realize.
So, for the last 6 months I've dealt with the deaths of both my father and brother, moving a month later, asking my husband for a divorce, and then a health scare so bad that I had to stop Ramadan on the 12th day in ordfer to save my life....I've had no community except everyone here. For that, I do thank you all.
Ok, so I apologized and went to bed for a nap. I woke up with a WICKED headach. I come out to the computer to check my messages and what is my reward for apologizing?.....
I discover that a woman whom I used to sing and drum with <powwow sing and drum...not casual singing> lives about 15 minutes away! Ummah!!!!!!!
Alhamdulilah!
"And there are, certainly, among the people of the Scripture (Jews and Christians), those who believe in Allah and in that which has been revealed to you, and in that which has been revealed to them, humbling themselves before Allah. They do not sell the Verses of Allah for a little price, for them is a reward with their Lord. Surely, Allah is Swift in account."

