Assalam Alaikum brothers and sisters my name is Mike Conley and I'm a new to Islam. I was born christian and found the word of Allah to be so moving a true to my heart but before i found Allah i was an angry and sinful person, I smoked pot and went to clubs and indulged in the fruits of this earth and in doing so I was very mean and angry towards those that where around me and treated them very badly and my wife especially. In doing so I've drove my wife away from me and feel that i destroyed the love she had for me in the process. I'm asking for guidance from Allah to show me what to do and how to restore the love in her heart that she once had for me. Now i am asking my brothers and sisters of Allah for helpful words that they may have to help me show her that the person i was before Allah is not the person she sees standing before her today. I struggle with this every day and it weighs heavily on my heart to fix things with her and start a new life in the eyes of Allah and hers.We have 3 beautiful children together and have been married for 9 years before we found Islam. I have not converted yet but she did a month or so ago i was harden to the thought of her becoming a Muslim and to me converting until I picked up her Hadith and Sunnah book and started reading it and found my heart becoming over whelmed with curiosity and seeing the truth in his words and they have shown me that there is only on true God and his name is Allah. I am planning on going to my local mosque to turn my self over to Allah and converting to Islam completely I am asking you for words of encouragement and guidance on what i should do do i let her go or do i stand and fight for or marriage.