Sisterhood
Just a sister
You are not muslim yet but you believe in Allah, there's alot you need to know more than just belief becuase if you know who Allah subhnahwatala is you would not ask a question like "why is Allah playing with my life?" "I have to wait for doom's day "
As muslims we believe Allah is All knower, All hearing and All Seeing, He tests us in this dunya and what we look forward to is the reward in the hereafter,relief does not necessarily happen now it is saved for us if we have patience on the day of judgement.
But that does not mean that we sit when we are faced with difficulties, your situation for instance can be solved by the government depending on where you live. Emotional and physical abuse is not something you should be quiet about, involve you relatives and if necessary the court. Someone has to speak to you father and advise him but again since you are not muslim yet or your family very little can be done from an islamic point of view.
Before you start questioning "where is the help of Allah" you should first declare the shahadah, the imam and muslim community in your region will definetely try to help and advise you so run to the masjid.
As muslims we believe Allah is All knower, All hearing and All Seeing, He tests us in this dunya and what we look forward to is the reward in the hereafter,relief does not necessarily happen now it is saved for us if we have patience on the day of judgement.
But that does not mean that we sit when we are faced with difficulties, your situation for instance can be solved by the government depending on where you live. Emotional and physical abuse is not something you should be quiet about, involve you relatives and if necessary the court. Someone has to speak to you father and advise him but again since you are not muslim yet or your family very little can be done from an islamic point of view.
Before you start questioning "where is the help of Allah" you should first declare the shahadah, the imam and muslim community in your region will definetely try to help and advise you so run to the masjid.