ushkm
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Assalamoalaikum,
I am new to this website and think this is a good forum to meet Muslims from around the world. The main reason of signing up for this website is I really need help.
I'm a 25 year old married male. All my life I've been blessed by Allah swt with everything I have ever wanted or wished for. My parents have been wonderful with me and so is my wife. I have no complaints from anyone. I have also performed Hajj 5 years back and last year Umrah as well Alhumdulillah.
But all my life I've never been stable with Islam. There was a time 5-6 years back when I used to pray 5 times a day and remember Allah a lot. Then I stopped doing it. for quiet some time. But then again I started being close with Allah and Islam. I have had those moments in life where I used to pray at night and literally when I prayed I used to get this feeling that Allah swt is directly listening to my prayers and whenever I had the need I used to pray with all my determination and Allah swt blessed me with everything. But then again I used to move away.
But now it's been long time that I haven't felt this closeness to Allah swt although I have this feeling within my heart that I want to get back to Allah and still have the fear inside me. I dont feel like praying and I dont even remember the last time when I genuinely prayed and made dua in front of Allah.
I really need Allah in my life but I know that I have made some sin of which I myself not sure about but something stops me from getting close to Allah.
I genuinely ask for advice and help me as I literally have tears in my eyes as I type this.
JazakAllah
I am new to this website and think this is a good forum to meet Muslims from around the world. The main reason of signing up for this website is I really need help.
I'm a 25 year old married male. All my life I've been blessed by Allah swt with everything I have ever wanted or wished for. My parents have been wonderful with me and so is my wife. I have no complaints from anyone. I have also performed Hajj 5 years back and last year Umrah as well Alhumdulillah.
But all my life I've never been stable with Islam. There was a time 5-6 years back when I used to pray 5 times a day and remember Allah a lot. Then I stopped doing it. for quiet some time. But then again I started being close with Allah and Islam. I have had those moments in life where I used to pray at night and literally when I prayed I used to get this feeling that Allah swt is directly listening to my prayers and whenever I had the need I used to pray with all my determination and Allah swt blessed me with everything. But then again I used to move away.
But now it's been long time that I haven't felt this closeness to Allah swt although I have this feeling within my heart that I want to get back to Allah and still have the fear inside me. I dont feel like praying and I dont even remember the last time when I genuinely prayed and made dua in front of Allah.
I really need Allah in my life but I know that I have made some sin of which I myself not sure about but something stops me from getting close to Allah.
I genuinely ask for advice and help me as I literally have tears in my eyes as I type this.
JazakAllah