Ah… I understand now. I am glad that you have already experienced some of the goodness of Islam and I hope that this website will help you find all that you seek, and if not… we’re here to help, God willing.
assalamualaikum wbr. i am living in toronto, ontario. i can give u some contacts in order for u to re-establish ur religion. if u feel comfortable sharing ur "bad experience", in order to enlighten me, it'll be very much appreciated. wassallam