Pain! (a personal rant of sorts)

[a_muslimah86]

Pain…

Memories cruelly dispense drops of you into my heart when I least expect it. I climb out of the turmoil of emotions tarred with wrongdoings, only to be haunted with, you.

Pain…

The companion, the enemy, the silence, the noise, the light, and the dark you have become to my sore heart, and that's why...


Pain…

I wish you’d go away…

Pain…

How I wish I can just wipe you away…

Pain…

Though you overpower my ailing heart countless times, on of us will be allowed a divinely decisive day…

Pain…

Savage my heart as you wish, Allah holds His hands out for me, only so I can *prostrate* you away!

Pain…

With water washing your taints away, with your shackles wrapping my heart trying to keep me close at bay, I will struggle and crawl only to *prostrate* you away!








I felt like I needed to put some feelings off my chest..and I don't have anybody to talk to...well...I do...but I don't think there are words that can I use to express myself...what I feel is beyond words..and I don't think anybody will understand...so I thought I should just write...

perhaps...now that I put some of these feelings and thoughts out indirectly...I will feel like someone is sharing them with me and is nodding with understanding...and because sometimes...it's easier to deceive one's *self* with little loopholes...than decrypt (for others) what is within *it*...


Pardon me if I bothered anyone...

 

[xSharingan01x]

:salam2:

*nodds with understanding*

Like you said sometimes it is nice to share just little bit of it, even if it be in an indirect way. No doubt, the feeling of restlessness and a heavy heart can be overpowering sometimes.
I pray that Allah grants you tranquility and fulfillment.

Some pain takes a very long time to deteriorate [be it family, friendship, whatever], but sooner or later we all come through.
Some pain are just like a bad stain,
InshaAllah you will be fine.




P.S. Not that it matters, but I thought I would share a personal thought.
There was something I thought that was very important to me, and out of my immaturity I let it cause myself great deal of pain, but as time passed on it became as insignificant to my eyes as the broken wing of a mosquito.

Alhamdulilah, He the Most High guided me to Islam.

 

[AlQurtubi]

"Some pain takes a very long time to deteriorate [be it family, friendship, whatever], but sooner or later we all come through.
Some pain are just like a bad stain,
InshaAllah you will be fine"

Yep, you are very right brother. You have been hitting the nails on the head these days. Are you practicing it ? lol

 

[xSharingan01x]

"Some pain takes a very long time to deteriorate [be it family, friendship, whatever], but sooner or later we all come through.
Some pain are just like a bad stain,
InshaAllah you will be fine"

Yep, you are very right brother. You have been hitting the nails on the head these days. Are you practicing it ? lol

:salam2:

Yes, I'm learning to be a carpenter.
j/k

 

[a_muslimah86]

:salam2:

*nodds with understanding*

Like you said sometimes it is nice to share just little bit of it, even if it be in an indirect way. No doubt, the feeling of restlessness and a heavy heart can be overpowering sometimes.
I pray that Allah grants you tranquility and fulfillment.

Some pain takes a very long time to deteriorate [be it family, friendship, whatever], but sooner or later we all come through.
Some pain are just like a bad stain,
InshaAllah you will be fine.




P.S. Not that it matters, but I thought I would share a personal thought.
There was something I thought that was very important to me, and out of my immaturity I let it cause myself great deal of pain, but as time passed on it became as insignificant to my eyes as the broken wing of a mosquito.

Alhamdulilah, He the Most High guided me to Islam.

Sometimes you develop such strong will to rid yourself of certain emotions..that you falsely believe that you have rid yourself of them completely..that's when these emotions sneak up..and you're shocked that they're there still!

Alhamduliallah for everything...

Humans are weak towards each other..subhanallah...they need to speak and express things to one another..even when they try to convince themselves otherwise ...that's why I wrote what I wrote

Jazaka Allah Khair for passing by and for your thoughts...they provoked my attention regarding something important