Please help me -This is my story.....

[peace10]

Salam aleikum!




First, sorry for my bad english. (I will post this on this Islamicboard to, but I wrote this for your forum)


I will tell you my story so you can help me, because I have it so
hard just now.. I dont want to go the mosque with this, maybe later.


Ok, lets make it "short", I cant tell you
exactly how it is, because I might expose myself.


I am from a muslim (Sunni if thats matter?) family. My parents moved to another country when
they got married. They lived with eachother for some years, and had some children.


My mom was a very god human, and did eveything for us. She is from a big and good family.


One day, a relative to us moved to the same city we lived in (she wasnt good) she wanted to destroy my
my mothers and father life.


She was married with a relative to me to. But she was a false human,
she talked to other man and so. And slowly took my mothers with her and then the problem began,
my mother gat to know som of her friends (men) but my mom wasnt interested in other guys, never.


But one day, this girl said to my mom come and meet (name of the guy). He was a very good man,
and he was christian.. my mother went out to see him, when she was with the guy, the girl called
to my mom and said your that family are here to kill you or something like that, and the christian
guy said he could help her.


They escaped togeter with me and my other brothers, later they fell in love, they got children.
So my brothers from my bilogical father are *muslims and the others from the christian man is
christians.




And this time I was very young (maybe 7) and Im the oldest of my siblings (only boys).


And we started to live lke christian, we ate pork, and did things christian did. We didnt fallow
Islamic rules. I grow older but I didnt never thnk about religion, but always belived in good. One
time I almost lost my faith in Good, but I didnt do that.




And time continiud, me and my brother visitd my father some times when we were youg, I promised
my father to visit him when I turned 18, and he called me some days after I turned 18, I decied
to meet him, and everything worked well, he knew I wasent a real muslim. After som time I then
said I want to meet our relatives.


He said, ok, we can do that. It ended with me going to my relatives alone. They liked me, but they
feelt sorry for me, because I wansnt like a muslim, I was like a Christian. They said, when you go home
contact an Imam and tell him your story, he will help you. They even said, say the Shahada for us,
I did that, and they said, after this, you cant make haram.




When I came home, I started to read about Islam, a lot. I sat up the whole night, I was tired.
I was so sad after all things I had done, I started to feel sick. I felt unwell, my
heart was beating quickly. I stoped reading and took a paus.


The I decided to say the Shahada for my self, I said it some times, I tried to say it right,
(I cant speak arabic, I underatand a little).


When I said it, I felt something in my body, I didnt now what that was, but it was a geat feeling,
and felt like new human, I wasnt tired anymore, its was so nice. I cant explain that. I than decided'
to become a real muslim.




I wanted to tell this to my bilogical father, so I took the car immediately and drove it fast
(stupid I know) to him.. and then I drive of the road, but nothing happend to me.. my mom and her man come
and took me home to them.


I told them about this feeling and everything (My mom do not know much about Islam) so she
couldnt help me. Her man, he said its nothing (he doenst believe in Islam). He said its
something that can happen. So I decided to forget it. This was over a year ago. I decided to
not tell my bilogical father.


They know I was chocked from the crash, they let me live in the hospital
so I could understand and calm down, I than went out fully recovered. Started working and living
like usual -not like a muslim.




So now, the crazy thing happen, I was on youtube som days ago, clicked on some videos, the I come into
a muslim video, I went down to see the commentars, I read the first commentar (highest rated).


The commentar was like this, he answears somone, " You dont know Islam, the secret to people
converting is that they get a feeling that you cant describe, its a beutiful feeling.


I said WOW, this is just what happend to me a year ago. I started google about this and I saw it
normal in Islam, and I come into your site, so therefore I want to ask you for your help.


I told my mom about this commentar on youtube, but she couldnt help me like I said, I told her
man, he said, this is not true, Its not from God, this feeling or power. Islam is false, It
can be from Satan or jin. That scared me, so I dont know what I should do now....




But according to what I read about Islam is that this feeling is from Good, if so, I have
lost my new chans I got 1 year ago... Im so sad and I dont know what I should do.. But as you
can see I have had it hard.. I had noone to ask or someone that could help me.
Now after this I feel down and bad for my self...


Can I say Shahada again and be a good muslim? Or is it to late? Can the feeling come back?
I want to test this on my christian brother to.. my moms man say, it will never work on him.




Please answear me if you know to 100% that your answear is right, or maybe you can ask someone
(Understanding) to read it and give me an answear. I think I shold post this on another forum, for
best support.




Have a very good day!


Assalamu aleikum!

 

[PeacefulHumanity]

:salam2:
Anyone can become a Muslim at any time. There's no time limit to it. But there is more to it than saying your shahada. You have to mean it, believe it and live it. You have to accept that there are none worthy of worship but Allah (SWT) as being a universal, timeless and fundamental truth. Can you do that? Do you believe that?

You also have to ask yourself if you are ready to give up all your previous haram ways and follow the deen? If you are having trouble answering these questions, read the Quran, the book "that has no falsehoods" (2:2)

 

[a_stranger]

Dear Islam is the final message from our creator to humanity , what you felt is so natural and true. To find out the truth start studying islam and practicing ...........our life has no meaning without Islam.

 

[MeGladder]

Wa `alaykumu s-salām, here is a beneficial article:

How Does One Become a Muslim?
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In order to become a Muslim, there are no specific religious rituals or customs that you need to perform, neither in specific areas nor in front of people. This is because in Islam a person has a direct relationship with his Lord without any intermediaries.

By simply believing and declaring that there is only one God and that Muhammad is His slave and Messenger one thereby becomes Muslim. Upon making this statement sincerely every sin in his/her life up to that point is forgiven.

God says in the Holy Qur’an Except those who repent and believe and do righteous deeds; for those, God will change their sins into good deeds, and God is Ever Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful  (25:70) You begin life again as a Muslim, one who submits to the will of God.

As for non-Muslims who have accepted Islam, they will be given their reward in double, due to their belief in their messengers as well as their belief in Muhammad.

Allah says:

((Those to whom We gave the Scripture [Torah and the Gospel, etc.] before it, - they believe in it (the Qur’an). * And when it is recited to them, they say: We believe in it. Verily, it is the truth from our Rubb. Indeed even before it we have been from those who submit themselves to Allah in Islam as Muslims. * These will be given their reward twice over, because they are patient, and repel evil with good, and spend (in charity) out of what We have provided them )) (28:52-54)

In addition to this, Allah effaces all the sins they did before accepting Islam. The Prophet said:

“Islam effaces all [the sins one did] before it?” (Muslim).

Source: http://www.thekeytoislam.com/en/how-to-become-a-muslim.shtml

(Check out that site for information on Islam)

 

[Itqan Ullah]

Waliekumasslam,
Brother your story is indeed very sad. Allahu musta'an.

Allah (swt) says in the Quran:

We will show them Our signs in the horizons and within themselves until it becomes clear to them that it is the truth. But is it not sufficient concerning your Lord that He is, over all things, a Witness? [Quran 41:53]

Those who have believed and whose hearts are assured by the remembrance of Allah . Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured." [Quran 13:28]


You can find answers to your questions here: http://islamqa.com/en/cat/12
Check out some videos here: http://www.youtube.com/user/TheDeenShowTV
If you are confused between Islam and christianity you can Read this.

and If you want to contact a scholar, you can do it here: http://www.assimalhakeem.net/contact

Plz do return and keep us updated on your situation inshallah! May Allah (swt) guide you to straight path.