oumyaquine
Fière de ma religion
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Well,I think most of you knows that I'm a reverted sis. Last year my daddy died.Since i reverted twelve years ago my family refused to see me no more.The fact is that i went on during those years trying to exist without no family,I mean I'm happily married. But,I thought that as most of the reverted muslims after few years everything will turn alright. All my reverted friends, after some months or after few years had reestablished they relationship with their family. Even my husband(he's a reverted too) has a normal relationship with his parent. I mean,his daddy call him at the phone or his brother phone him to play soccer together... The problem is that I went trough all those years believing that someday i coulg hug again my mum and my dad in my arms and show them my children, and suddlendly my dad passed away and I wasn't able to do it . I'm already 31 now,but it's getting worst everyday, I just want MY FAMILY BACK!!!. I keep on making du'as and praying Allah so hard and nothing changes. I so often sad now, and I often think that all this is not fair,but at the same time i know it is maktab. But nothing changes and I feel so bad,so sad, i cry so often that I can't help it. I don't know why. I tried to explained this to my husband but he said don't know how to help . I mean he does not know how I feel, he's still talking and seeing his parent.Sometimes i feel nearly jealous of his situation and that's not good. I try to explain him that what I need is a phone call from a mum asking me if I'm ok, or my sister ringing at my door. I swear by Allah Almighty thet I asked Him to help me, but sometimes I can't help starting thinking of them. Don't know what more to do,my dady's death has awaikened something and I hate being like this. Oh please,Please ,please make du'as for me ,it s getting so hard.
Well,I think most of you knows that I'm a reverted sis. Last year my daddy died.Since i reverted twelve years ago my family refused to see me no more.The fact is that i went on during those years trying to exist without no family,I mean I'm happily married. But,I thought that as most of the reverted muslims after few years everything will turn alright. All my reverted friends, after some months or after few years had reestablished they relationship with their family. Even my husband(he's a reverted too) has a normal relationship with his parent. I mean,his daddy call him at the phone or his brother phone him to play soccer together... The problem is that I went trough all those years believing that someday i coulg hug again my mum and my dad in my arms and show them my children, and suddlendly my dad passed away and I wasn't able to do it . I'm already 31 now,but it's getting worst everyday, I just want MY FAMILY BACK!!!. I keep on making du'as and praying Allah so hard and nothing changes. I so often sad now, and I often think that all this is not fair,but at the same time i know it is maktab. But nothing changes and I feel so bad,so sad, i cry so often that I can't help it. I don't know why. I tried to explained this to my husband but he said don't know how to help . I mean he does not know how I feel, he's still talking and seeing his parent.Sometimes i feel nearly jealous of his situation and that's not good. I try to explain him that what I need is a phone call from a mum asking me if I'm ok, or my sister ringing at my door. I swear by Allah Almighty thet I asked Him to help me, but sometimes I can't help starting thinking of them. Don't know what more to do,my dady's death has awaikened something and I hate being like this. Oh please,Please ,please make du'as for me ,it s getting so hard.
