VeryConfused
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I'd like to thank everyone who took time out to respond to my post last night. I remain confused and a little sad but I know when GOD sees it fit he will reveal to me HIS universal faith and fill my heart, mind, and sences with the truth of HIS true faith. I did forget to mention a few things last night in my post. I forgot to mention at one time when I was younger (years ago) I had sort of "informally" accept Islam. I did to proffess faith to GOD (or Islam) or The Prophet Muhammed (pbuh) but I did take part in prayers and attended mosque (but not formally recognized by this mosque or accepted formally). I initially "accepted" because of the way I felt hearing adahn, and quranic readings. I also loved the complete submission to GOD, I loved how people were so accepting and welcoming and saw this as a sign of truthfulness and faith. I also loved seeing American Women behave soo "un-Ho-like." I stopped attending and praying because I realized I didn't really know what I was worshipping, and to be honest in terms of prayers I didn't know what I was saying or how to say the prayers so I felt so bad I stopped dead. Since that time I have been actively studying all faiths to try and find and faith that matched my faith in GOD and how I saw GOD to be, so to those of you who suggested I didn't read Holy Quran, you are sadly mistaken. In fact I've read it twice just last year alone and have re-read it again recently (past month). I'd also like to point out I have NEVER read ANY reformist Islamic materials of anytype the things I sited in my letter can be found in Holy Quran, take your own advice and re-read Holy Quran yourself. To bring up the point of "missed prayer punishment" it was just one of many examples I took from Quran of the way Quran portrays GOD as Dr. Jeckle, and Mister Hyde. I believe most of Quran but GODS odd behavior portrayed in Quran leaves me to wonder that either GOD has a split personality or parts of Quran were changed along time ago by someone and no one realizes it (or wants to). Snake eating inards for missing prayer found at Rahman4.piczo.com/missingprayerpunishment, by the way I believe that if GOD writes something that direct, something such as that, that cannot be "taken a different way" or "mataphorically" then he doesn't want you to. I saw that someone said "Allah only punishes the ignorant" if you are correct (it says this in Quran) than GOD would basically burn you alive if you didn't know of him due to circumstances you couldn't control? Man, I'd hate to get in Allah's way when he sees a retarded guy. How understanding.... I also saw someone "slapped my wrist" for attacking Christians. Christians are evil and immoral, sorry the truth hurts... I have always had undying faith and belief in GOD and I know he has always been close to me physically and in my heart. Faith and Love in GOD I believe will conquere all and I know he has loved me more than I know for personal reasons you wouldn't believe. I believe something about Islam is distorted in some way but I believe my undying faith in GOD will someday make me worthy of his direction towards HIS faith which will only make me stronger in loving HIM. Thanks to you all but something doesn't fit....Salam..........................