Reluctant groom
A poem partly inspired by Baba Ali
Just finished uni
Done my masters
And I’m twenty three
Got a job sorted
Career guaranteed
Life is on track
But one setback
Aint got no wife
To complete this life
Had enough of playing
Home and away
Got married at eighteen
Arranged to a stranger
Doesn’t matter
She’s related
I was mentally sedated
Brainwashed and blackmailed
So I did the deed
Reluctantly
I said yes
Then got stressed
When I thought about it
She came over
But I still continued with my lover
Parents knew
No one cared
Family traditions maintained
That’s all that mattered
But I felt mentally and physically shattered
Not easy pleasing two women
Kids came
Legit and illegitimate
Father of four
My life was a bore
Living like Jekyl and Hyde
Two mobiles
Always on edge
Drink and drugs
Feeling like a criminal
My life sucks
Time to decide
What to do
Make tough decisions
Upset the parents and family
What do i want?
Lived most of my life for others
Never thought or was bothered
Went with the flow
Now I’m feeling down and so low
Went to a talk
Not to stalk
women
But to learn
And understand
Why I am in this dunya
Is it for satisfying desires and lusts?
The speaker
Appeared to be a joker
Showing videos
And humour
Place was packed
Like sardines stacked
Brothers and sisters
Some in the deen
While others searching
And some lost souls
Made me think
That Friday night
So I took a break
For one night
From zina and drink
Woke up on Saturday
Feeling exhilarated
Better than along time
Time to focus
And not move with the locusts
Heading for hell
Laughing and smiling
Brainwashed totally
Me I’m trying
With the deen
and want to be seen
In the masjid and in sajdah
Bowing only to Allah
Author: Showkat Ali
A poem partly inspired by Baba Ali
Just finished uni
Done my masters
And I’m twenty three
Got a job sorted
Career guaranteed
Life is on track
But one setback
Aint got no wife
To complete this life
Had enough of playing
Home and away
Got married at eighteen
Arranged to a stranger
Doesn’t matter
She’s related
I was mentally sedated
Brainwashed and blackmailed
So I did the deed
Reluctantly
I said yes
Then got stressed
When I thought about it
She came over
But I still continued with my lover
Parents knew
No one cared
Family traditions maintained
That’s all that mattered
But I felt mentally and physically shattered
Not easy pleasing two women
Kids came
Legit and illegitimate
Father of four
My life was a bore
Living like Jekyl and Hyde
Two mobiles
Always on edge
Drink and drugs
Feeling like a criminal
My life sucks
Time to decide
What to do
Make tough decisions
Upset the parents and family
What do i want?
Lived most of my life for others
Never thought or was bothered
Went with the flow
Now I’m feeling down and so low
Went to a talk
Not to stalk
women
But to learn
And understand
Why I am in this dunya
Is it for satisfying desires and lusts?
The speaker
Appeared to be a joker
Showing videos
And humour
Place was packed
Like sardines stacked
Brothers and sisters
Some in the deen
While others searching
And some lost souls
Made me think
That Friday night
So I took a break
For one night
From zina and drink
Woke up on Saturday
Feeling exhilarated
Better than along time
Time to focus
And not move with the locusts
Heading for hell
Laughing and smiling
Brainwashed totally
Me I’m trying
With the deen
and want to be seen
In the masjid and in sajdah
Bowing only to Allah
Author: Showkat Ali