Asslaam mu alaykum
Maybe my choice of title is wrong.
You see, I was born Muslim in a family that always had an Islamic presence. We were educated in Islam.
I read/heard (can't remember) a while ago an imaam speaking about truely becoming a Muslim. What he explained was that even if you are a born Muslim there needs to come a realisation that you want to be a MUslim. Not just going through the motions on automatic and doing things because you were taught to do it. According to him, you need to be passionate about practicing Islam to fully benefit from doing it. After thinking about this information that seemed so logical and so basic, I realised that it made absolute sence.
Although I would read some of my salaahs and would make sure I never ate anything haraam, I never really felt a need to do it regularly.
After comtemplating this peice of information, I started wearing the hijaab properly, covering all my hair everytime I left the house. Also started praying my salaahs on time regardless of where I am, or making sure I was either near a mosque or home at salaah times so that I wouldn't find an excuse not to pray. I find that I now have a yearing to do more, pray more, change my life more towards a more Islamic lifestyle. I'm at the point where I feel guilty when I'm even thinking something wrong.
So my point... I think I'm finally reverting to Islam
Insha-allah it will last and get stronger.
Maybe my choice of title is wrong.
You see, I was born Muslim in a family that always had an Islamic presence. We were educated in Islam.
I read/heard (can't remember) a while ago an imaam speaking about truely becoming a Muslim. What he explained was that even if you are a born Muslim there needs to come a realisation that you want to be a MUslim. Not just going through the motions on automatic and doing things because you were taught to do it. According to him, you need to be passionate about practicing Islam to fully benefit from doing it. After thinking about this information that seemed so logical and so basic, I realised that it made absolute sence.
Although I would read some of my salaahs and would make sure I never ate anything haraam, I never really felt a need to do it regularly.
After comtemplating this peice of information, I started wearing the hijaab properly, covering all my hair everytime I left the house. Also started praying my salaahs on time regardless of where I am, or making sure I was either near a mosque or home at salaah times so that I wouldn't find an excuse not to pray. I find that I now have a yearing to do more, pray more, change my life more towards a more Islamic lifestyle. I'm at the point where I feel guilty when I'm even thinking something wrong.
So my point... I think I'm finally reverting to Islam
Insha-allah it will last and get stronger.