Aisya al-Humaira
الحمدلله على كل حال
salam alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh
to all my brothers and sisters here in TTI
wish u all in the best of health and under Allah's mercy always
the reason im posting this thread not basically to express my feelings so much
but more to the need of advice from my brothers and sisters
as for right now
and for most of the time
i feel completely ~lost~ in this world
how i wish to cry so so so much
YA ALLAH please grant us peace and tranquility in our heart
yeah i do know the cause for my heart feeling this way
and how i really miss
miss it everyday
the peace that Allah once spread inside my heart
where during that time
i feel like needing nothing in this world
except to obey Allah with all my heart
but of course there are trials and tests in life
where our imann will go up and down
and by this time
i think my imann havent increase so much
and how i tried reading tafsir, pray sunat a little
but still it doesnt give me peace like it used to be
maybe i can say that my heart is very and seriously black and dirty now
sometimes at night
i cried wishing to go back to Allah with a clean and pure heart
but the surrounding im living in
doesnt help much
means that there arent a lot of people here whom i can share the wavering that i feel inside
the right feeling that i feel is i feel 'stuck' and 'lost'...
stuck by my own nafs and lost to find my way out
how i wish to go to a very far place
repent to Allah
and lead a very peaceful life
Ya Allah please guide us in this world full of fitnah
im sorry for this long thread
and any good and consoling advice from u all
i thank u all for ur help
and may we all strive our best for jannah in the very limited time in this world
jazakallah hu khair
salam
to all my brothers and sisters here in TTI
wish u all in the best of health and under Allah's mercy always
the reason im posting this thread not basically to express my feelings so much
but more to the need of advice from my brothers and sisters
as for right now
and for most of the time
i feel completely ~lost~ in this world
how i wish to cry so so so much
YA ALLAH please grant us peace and tranquility in our heart
yeah i do know the cause for my heart feeling this way
and how i really miss
miss it everyday
the peace that Allah once spread inside my heart
where during that time
i feel like needing nothing in this world
except to obey Allah with all my heart
but of course there are trials and tests in life
where our imann will go up and down
and by this time
i think my imann havent increase so much
and how i tried reading tafsir, pray sunat a little
but still it doesnt give me peace like it used to be
maybe i can say that my heart is very and seriously black and dirty now
sometimes at night
i cried wishing to go back to Allah with a clean and pure heart
but the surrounding im living in
doesnt help much
means that there arent a lot of people here whom i can share the wavering that i feel inside
the right feeling that i feel is i feel 'stuck' and 'lost'...
stuck by my own nafs and lost to find my way out
how i wish to go to a very far place
repent to Allah
and lead a very peaceful life
Ya Allah please guide us in this world full of fitnah
im sorry for this long thread
and any good and consoling advice from u all
i thank u all for ur help
and may we all strive our best for jannah in the very limited time in this world
jazakallah hu khair
salam
