slaveofAllah88
Slave of Allah (swt)
May this post reach u in the best of health and iman – amen
:lol: I must be bugging u guyz a lot sorry about that if anyone ever feels like I need to shut there is nothing wrong in letting me know
Lol SO yea I got another issue that I feel like I shud discuss before it gets out of hand , Well its my parents in general family.
Ok well every since i decided to grow my beard , i have become so far apart from my family i literally dont even feel a part of it now i sometimes feel like im living among stranges ....
Im mostly concerned about my mom , I really love my mom, After Allah (swt) and his rasool (PBUH), I wud say I love my mom , not sure I wud be anything in life without her , I wudn’t even be here without her, Well everything was fine with her but in the last year or so I want to be better muslim, well I made some changes the biggest one is I decided to grow a beard, well lets just say it hasn’t been easy. Well other than being in a non muslim country with very lil muslim, my family has really hurt me the most.
My mom, she just ... we used to be so close now the only thing she tells me 24/7 is shave that ugly beard, she tells me i look so ugly horrible, her remarks are very painful , he has told me as soon as she sees that beard on my face she just gets angry, and she has been so angry with me lately, she just is always angry, every lil thiing and her anger comes out on all of us bros, she is always shave the beard, u r doing nothing but show off ... but i am not i really love my beard i can rep Islam, i feel so proud i walk in a crowd and people always recognize me as a musliim even thou my beard is really small, i have been forced to shave it like twice, and it really hurts cuz i spend like month on it and gone in minutes, thats not it, everyone including my bros they harrass me with names and as they walk pass me they are always shave it , my bros beg me sometimes just shave it we are embarrassed to go out with u ..... im not sure wat to do , i dont want to shave it but i feel like if i dont i will lose my family.
i try my bes to patient, but sometimes i will tell my mom plz mom leave me alone or plz drop it and then she wont talk to me for hours like wont even look at me, her demand shave the beard.
other than my mom, my dad always screams, shouts at me, and my parents say im a horrible son, im disobedient and im a bad muslim,so there is no point of a beard cuz im not obeying a bigger commandment im upsetting my parents ... i have really started to feel so low in my deen cuz my parents are always upset with me, last time it came to me telling my parents i cant take it i will just leave and they told me to leave ... and i cudn't go .... i dont know where to go , in this city, my family is all i got , i already left all bad friends, praying outside is such a prb i spend alot of time outside but it results in missing prayers sometimes cuz none of the mosque are open for 5 daily prayers .... as far as i know ....
ANy sugguestions .... I really dont want to lose my beard , cuz its my muslim identity, but i really dont want to lose my family either ....?
Also, would Allah (swt) be upset with me cuz my upsets are upset with me, i know heaven lies under my mothers feet i feel like im losing that?
im sorry for whinning .... but i feel like im losing patience cuz of the already so many pains there and those pain i can take but when someone breaks ur heart it hurts alot.
JazakAllah khair
sorry for so much rambling but I love my mom so much, i always used to hug and kiss her before going to bed, i wud wake up and the 1st thing i wud want to see is my mom, i hug her before leaving home, on entering like i really love her BUT now its all opposite instead of the love i usuallly send her bed angry, she wakes up angry and is mostly angry looking at me, and i cant even sleep at night knowing my mom is angry going to bed ..... not sure wat to do
:lol: I must be bugging u guyz a lot sorry about that if anyone ever feels like I need to shut there is nothing wrong in letting me know
Lol SO yea I got another issue that I feel like I shud discuss before it gets out of hand , Well its my parents in general family.
Ok well every since i decided to grow my beard , i have become so far apart from my family i literally dont even feel a part of it now i sometimes feel like im living among stranges ....
Im mostly concerned about my mom , I really love my mom, After Allah (swt) and his rasool (PBUH), I wud say I love my mom , not sure I wud be anything in life without her , I wudn’t even be here without her, Well everything was fine with her but in the last year or so I want to be better muslim, well I made some changes the biggest one is I decided to grow a beard, well lets just say it hasn’t been easy. Well other than being in a non muslim country with very lil muslim, my family has really hurt me the most.
My mom, she just ... we used to be so close now the only thing she tells me 24/7 is shave that ugly beard, she tells me i look so ugly horrible, her remarks are very painful , he has told me as soon as she sees that beard on my face she just gets angry, and she has been so angry with me lately, she just is always angry, every lil thiing and her anger comes out on all of us bros, she is always shave the beard, u r doing nothing but show off ... but i am not i really love my beard i can rep Islam, i feel so proud i walk in a crowd and people always recognize me as a musliim even thou my beard is really small, i have been forced to shave it like twice, and it really hurts cuz i spend like month on it and gone in minutes, thats not it, everyone including my bros they harrass me with names and as they walk pass me they are always shave it , my bros beg me sometimes just shave it we are embarrassed to go out with u ..... im not sure wat to do , i dont want to shave it but i feel like if i dont i will lose my family.
i try my bes to patient, but sometimes i will tell my mom plz mom leave me alone or plz drop it and then she wont talk to me for hours like wont even look at me, her demand shave the beard.
other than my mom, my dad always screams, shouts at me, and my parents say im a horrible son, im disobedient and im a bad muslim,so there is no point of a beard cuz im not obeying a bigger commandment im upsetting my parents ... i have really started to feel so low in my deen cuz my parents are always upset with me, last time it came to me telling my parents i cant take it i will just leave and they told me to leave ... and i cudn't go .... i dont know where to go , in this city, my family is all i got , i already left all bad friends, praying outside is such a prb i spend alot of time outside but it results in missing prayers sometimes cuz none of the mosque are open for 5 daily prayers .... as far as i know ....
ANy sugguestions .... I really dont want to lose my beard , cuz its my muslim identity, but i really dont want to lose my family either ....?
Also, would Allah (swt) be upset with me cuz my upsets are upset with me, i know heaven lies under my mothers feet i feel like im losing that?
im sorry for whinning .... but i feel like im losing patience cuz of the already so many pains there and those pain i can take but when someone breaks ur heart it hurts alot.
JazakAllah khair
sorry for so much rambling but I love my mom so much, i always used to hug and kiss her before going to bed, i wud wake up and the 1st thing i wud want to see is my mom, i hug her before leaving home, on entering like i really love her BUT now its all opposite instead of the love i usuallly send her bed angry, she wakes up angry and is mostly angry looking at me, and i cant even sleep at night knowing my mom is angry going to bed ..... not sure wat to do