Asja
Pearl of Islaam
...For that and more...Forgive me
Do not ask me why I have to leave, when I have left long time ago. Do not bring those memories back, when you know that everything what we had stayed in that day, and I do not have strenght to go trough everything once again. Not now, not ever again, not one step more, the leaves had fallen since long time, leaving the empty branches, leaving my heart empty. It hurts, I can feel that heart is falling apart, my heart, strongest of all others, but still weak. I am breathing hard, out of fear, out of long time lost dream, becouse that day when I opened my eyes you were not there, I was not any more there, only dust stayed to witness what has stayed behind us.
How it hurts to see the sky falling, like the rain on the skin of the memory. I have looked for you, I invented you, between each broken dream, the remains of my faith. Never again will I feel what I felt before, never again mornings will bring you to me, never again morning will bring long time written destiny which I am living and changing today.
Do not ask me why end is so near and why the look in my eyes is not the look you used to know, that look in which world could stay, world that I would fight for you and never would I loose. Is it that the sea is the same after the storm, that see in which my eyes are reflected, so deep, when you look at them you would say that they have joned with the sky. Not one word more, not even one touch more, this ends here, and there is no way to say yes once again.
If you ever ask why I will not know how to give you a reason, for that and more forgive me. If you ever say I did not loved you enough, I was not strong enough for you, I will understand your heart, and I know you will not understand me, for that and more forgive me.
If at one time I made you smille and you opened the doors of your heart to me, little by little you believed in me, it was me I know, for that and more forgive me. Forgive me for I will not be there tomorow to open the doors of your life, I will not make you smille giving you everything what I am. I feel I have to go like this, in silence, when everyone else is sleeping their dream. I am afraid your eyes would ask me to stay and they do not know it has came time to leave. Not even one word more, not even one touch more in the heart, not now, not ever again.
If you ever ask me why, I will not know how to give you a reason, it was not you I know....
For that and more forgive me.......
Written by; Asja
