Desires of this world deceives me and certainly holds me back,
as a Muslim I must comprehend and know this as a fact!
Does it make a difference I question?
Nobody else has my mind,
no other can see the hurt in my eyes - nor emotional scars that lay behind,
except.. The Lord Our Mighty;
within my heart is absolutely EVERYTHING He's sure to find.
Is it so I appear to be sensitive?
Or is becoming scared a sign that I am weak?
Amongst all the thoughts is the pain and the warmth as the tears slithers down my cheeks,
What did I do this time?
Was it the same mistake?
Are all the questions gathered up just as I awake.
I pray to be that stronger person sometimes I don't know who I am,
I ask for extra guidance and to strengthen my imaan,
one thing is known so well to me - in the mirror stands a good person that I see,
with all good intentions and a wish to succeed,
The Lord Our God is Oft-Forgiving, Most-Merciful and on Him I depend and NEED!
Say: "O 'Ibadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evils deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah: verily, Allah forgives all sins. Truly He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. 39:53 Surah Az-Zumar