Salem Alikoum brothers and sisters.
I too am a revert to Islam. I took my shahada in December of last year. All my family are non muslim and at the moment they do not know I am a revert. :shymuslima1:
This is my first Ramadan and Eid and although they know im fasting they think i am doing it to support my husband (who is muslim). I used to be an athiest before i reverted but with my husband practising him religion i got to learn more about Islam and it felt right.
I have a daughter who is non muslim and although she now doesnt believe in 'santa claus' she still loves christmas. I know its not right but i will still be getting her presents for christmas.Im stuck in between not wanting to upset my family and not wanting to do the wrong thing by acknowledging christmas.Although this year i have said we cant make it for dinner with them and we are staying at home.Inshallah i can slowly 'wean' myself from the traditional cultures of the non muslims like xmas and birthdays etc
You may all think that i should tell my family about me being muslim but its not as straight forward as that and there are things that i cannot mention on here that will contribute to them not being happy about my decision. They respect the beliefs of Islam,although my mum is christian and im not sure if my dad is a believer or not.We never used to talk about things like that and to be honest,christmas has never been religious for our family,its always been a time for presents and family dinners together.
From time to time i try and talk to them about Islam and they do often ask questions about why my husband is doing/or cant do certain things.
I would like to ask you all to make d'ua for me to one day get the courage to tell everyone i am muslim and proud of it. At the moment i cant be a 'proper' muslim because im a secret muslim. I try and do salat when i can but i do not wear hijab yet. I know i shouldnt just take bits of Islam and leave bits but at the moment i am weak.
I hope you do not think bad of me because i am not a bad person.